Is It Possible Ever to Be Free From This ? Posted: 05-05-05 14:27pm
I've been bingeing and purging for over a
year and although it has eased up lately,i
can't see myself ever being free from
eating distress. My mam and dad made me
go see a councillor and he tells me that I
will be free from all of this one day but
I find it hard to believe him. I have
been obsessed with my body since I was 12-
i'm now 18.I hate the way I look.I feel
fat and ugly and I desperately need to
lose weight. I've shut myself into a
box-i've pushed away all my friends
because I don't want them to find out
about my disgusting habit.I feel like a
fraud because I don't think I have an
amazingly big problem and yet my parents
are paying lots of money to go see his man
who I find it very difficult to talk to
and don't tell half the caca that's going
on in my life. I want this to go away but
I don't think it ever will. Any advice ?
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 05-05-05 15:19pm
Hi there! You have to want this to go
away too and you need to help it go away.
You might think or write down about all
of the negatives that this is doing to
you, you are slowly killing yourself and
those who like and love you and I will bet
that their are a lot of people who like
and love you.
Talk to your parents, let them know that
this person is not helping you. I will
bet that you are not fat and ugly. This
can go away! It is like a mountain or a
hurdle that you must get over, you can do
it with help.
Good luck!
Keep us posted.
Sandy
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waterbabe
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 5 Location: Dublin
Have You Recovered ? Posted: 05-05-05 16:31pm
Thanks for your reply.Do you mind me
asking you if you have recovered from this
? I'm afraid to tell my mam and dad that
the councillor isn't really helping incase
they think i'm being ungrateful.I'm not
though.I hate going there.Did you ever go
to counselling ? Did it get easier ? Did
it help ? Sorry for all the questions
it's the first time i've really opened up
about this.I hate talking bout it but the
fact that this is anoymous makes it a
whole lot easier ! Thank you again for
your help.
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mshanson
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2004 Posts: 102 Location: California
Posted: 05-07-05 22:27pm
I guess I can offer you hope, depending on
what you mean by 'free'. I was bulimic
& I despised everything about myself
when I was your age. I, too, have been
anorexic/bulimarexic since age 11. Now I
am 42 & I have not binged or purged,
or even really thought about it, in years.
The starving part was harder to stop - I
still struggle with that occasionally.
Today, I am a fitness & health food
fanatic. I'm not sure whether that's good
or not. I'm actually glad not to be
'normal" since so many 'normal' people
are overweight & addicted to junk food
& are couch potatoes.
I can honestly say I like my body today
but I work very hard at keeping fit, so I
wonder whether I would still like it if I
couldn't work out.
At any rate, i'm no longer in the hell of
eating disorders, even if i'm still a bit
neurotic. So, hope...?!
