I'm sorry for writing again but I just
don't think I can do it anymore. I want
to die,i don't want to wait around to
recover I just want to die. I am so lost
and I will be in so much trouble. How can
I ever fight this on my own? I don't know
what to do, I really don't. I think I am
losing this battle and no one can save me,
no one can get me out of this dark hole
and I am falling further and further each
day. What am I going to do. I don't want
to recover so there is only so much my
therapists can do for me, its hopeless, I
am hopeless.
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deathx
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Aug 2004 Posts: 118
Posted: 05-09-05 17:17pm
Sounding grim as usual. Its just a case
of knowing that its something you have to
beat, its something only you cna beat, a
mental thing. Beat it.
I know you can, everyone can. We've got
will and spirit and I know you can do it.
It's important not to give up, don't throw
your life away so easily.
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victoria13
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Apr 2005 Posts: 16 Location: Ill
Hang In There Posted: 05-29-05 13:51pm
Hey I know how u feeli wnet through this
stage before I was raped I sat down every
day and thought about how I wanted to die
I got to the point athat I wrote all my
friends a note telling them how I just
could not live anymore. But then a week
before I was going to kill myself one of
my freinds mom to me to this church thing
called b.I.G.D.O.G and I went and exepted
god into my heart and it felt like that
lonlyness I felt was gone I dont know if u
beleave in god but he realy helped me I
now go to church every sunday and realy
try to enjoy life even though I have a
eating disoter that I have tryed to over
cme and I ws raped 5 months ago,
i have this saying that my 7th grade
volleyball coach always sad to me "lifes
to short forget about it" and I think
aboutthat every day when somthing is
bothering me. And I know that. That
saying and god will not fix me but yet
they help me get though the thick and tin.
Haveig a eating disote is tough trust me
iknow life is hard and somtime u think
what is the point of living.( I know I
might me confusing) but I have faith in u
and I think u can get throw this I have
evenbeing 5 months preg. With some guys
kid that I dont jknow.
Well I hope this helps.
Feel free to e-mail me @ vjh913@ho
tmail.Com
victoria
