Can It Go Away?

Im in a similiar situation, a few years back I had a bad trip on lsd, were I basically detatched socially from my friends and was paranoid about what everyone thought of me, and perhaps feeling slightly the way you felt, I guess I havent felt the same since, and its ruining my life.

I was also a highly active marijuana user up untill a year ago, im sure that didnt help, but after my bad trip I seemed to gradually change to a anti social person, with weird thoughts and phobias, now my reality is all !@#^ed up and I can have pretty bad anti social episodes/depression, and very low self confidence or esteem.

This has been going on for some time, and to cope I just became a house potatoe, never going out for years, playing video games and smoking weed all day, for years.

Every time I try to change things, I always seem to feel the same symptoms of being detatched from everyone and everything, and just fall back into my state of being anti social....I went to see a shrink a year ago he kind of sucked, and he put me on lexapro which didnt do a damn thing....I than thought I might have adult add, as I have difficulty concentrating and being able to handle conversations....

Now im wandering if I possibly have phycosis or some similiar disorder, im not completely crazy, as I dont see people or hear people who arent there, altough I do sometime sence things that arent there, like a paranoi, im easly distracted and all the sounds and sights around me kind of confuse me, but I also have disconected thoughts, im really not sure what to think, but im thinking of seeing a shrink soon in hopes it really is some mental condition that meds can help with, or if im just crazy.

However, im curios if the meds have helped you at all, if you want to talk further give me a email or aim screen name and ill message you sometime.

For anyone reading this, any ideas what could be wrong with me?

Yeah I can relate... Same thing happened to me after smoking marijuana taking extazy and god knows what else :) I call it my first psyhotic episode (i also thought that I was having a bad tripp) I haven't been diagonsticated with schizophrenia but I think I am ....Anyway see a psychiatrist and tell him what you think.

Maybe the real problem is sometimes we have trouble coping with all the mean things that happen and we are already looking inside of ourselves instead of talking about how sometimes normal people say or do things that confuse us and make us feel stupid even though we know we are not because we do as well or often better than them at school.

Hi there, (i had to send it to everyone of you one by one sorry guys, you'll see this in each topic)

please listen to me very carefully, never go to a doctor , i'll tell you why, I had those symptoms from the second year of my high school education and it was only two months ago thank to my roommate I was able to see everything clearly...You dont have any disorder or deficiency or any physcological problem , it is the spirits that are trying to communicate with you...With all you see, all you hear and all spoken , thruogh a code they are trying to get your attention...

-please dont discard this, if you are around nyc I can take you to hindu temple, take you to catholic church take to the mosque or meet with a few people in my office to enlighten you- chek these web pages:

http://www.S pecularium.Org/index.Php?Option=com_conten t&task=view&id=39&itemid=74

http://en.Wikipedia.Org/ wiki/divination


what you are experiencing is called spontaneous divination, probably evil spirits are trying to lead you somewhere, mess up your life, or sometimes good spiritis trying to help you and in the end ask for something...

-it sounds ridicilous at first, I was atheist myself, but I had admit after so many people confitrmed this...---

i am trying to help , it is your choice to listen to me or not, I never listened before and now I have to admit it, I got the truth now ... If you are interested to listen more

karaca2 6@hotmail.Com

ps. They'll make you believe that you are messiah, or they are alien etc.. Be prepared from now...

I think you can only find the solution, where the problem lies. That is in learning the real tools needed to understand people. If you really want help, we can start tlking about whatever part of people interactions are stressing you out the most.

I read the other night and was told by my doctor it can take up to 7 weeks (i think) for risperdal to start working, but yeah it takes a while for them to kick in.

I just wondered if you are playing a sick joke when you speak these things (and the other spiritual nut who has also been spreading sicko twisted things in these forums) the last thing you want to say to a schizophrenic is to tell them to either a)stop taking their medication or b)tell them their hallucinations are real. Its like telling a diabetic to stop taking insuline shots... It can have devastating consequences.
Obviously you are oblivious to the amount of damage you can cause coming onto a forum like this and saying these things. If I were you I would go away and not come back to this section. So far the input I have seen you put in forums, you are going to end up killing someone.

I need to know if i'm schizophrenic or not. I smoked pot for like maybe 2 years. Than I did lsd and e. The acid trip was somewhat bad. Over last summer I decided to try some "legal drug alternatives" from online. They worked, but they were weird. I really don't know if there accually legal. So I was doing it, and I swore stuff was happining that wasn't. It only happened to me out of all the people who did it. It was a lot different than an acid trip. Than I kept thinking people were talking to me even until the next day. I kept saying what to people, and they weren't talking at all. So the next few days I keep thinking i'm talking to people, and I turn around, and there not there. Basically I was hearing a lot of voices. Mostly friends of mine. I was having accual conversations. Than I don't know why, but I did it again. I was soposed to go to a friends house, but I went the opposite way some reason. I thought my friend was on a bike behind me. Got to this footbridge, I saw my other friend, and the one behind me stopped to talk. I turned arround, and they both weren't there. I stopped at the pitch black bridge, and dropped my bike. This still stumps me what happened, it's rediculous. I was like hey to these other 2 friends of mine. They didn't answer. I said whats wrong. Than they were hung by cargo nets in the trees. Then I think I saw some gothic girl I believed was in a cult push one of the bodies so it swung behind the other. I don't even know how to explaine how terrified I was. Where you get that sharp pain in you, and you can't move, and your body starts convulsing. So yea I jumped on my bike, and rode away, called 911. Wasn't good. Anyways after that I was fine for awhile. Than I started getting delusional thoughts when I smoked. Like my friends wanted to kill me, were undercover cops, etc. Than I didn't smoke too much for while. Did acid again, had a bad tip. Not one of those ones where you are compleetly helpless, but enough where I was paranoid, and kept thinking oh my god it's going to last like 10 more hours. Basically like something you have to live through. Than I got caught in school with an alprazolam (xanax) and got blammed for giving this kid something he overdosed on. So my friend called me later to ask me questions. Thats when I started getting those thoughts even when not high. I thought he was helping the cops or something. Now it's just like getting paranoid while high, just all the time now. I went to my friends house the other day. Him and other people there I felt like they looked at me weird. Than I started to think they were going to kill me, or they were trying to get me to smoke so cops could arrest me. I got myself so freaked out I had to leave. Now it seems everyday I get anxiety attacks, and I can't function at all. I don't know if i'm schitsophrenic, or it's the pot and lsd. What should I do. Also I agree with firefly, I thought I was psychic for like a month so please don't be messing around if you are.

Toastyboy, I smoked myself straight into a panicdisorder with like 2-3-4full blown panic attacks every day, these were so intense I almost killed my self a couple of times.
Felt like I wasn't part of the world at all, crawled around on the floor not understanding a thing.
What helped me was when I felt the anxiety coming, I fought it, made it worse than ever, screamt cmon, medical question me up,
then I saw I was really the one controlling it all, after that i've just had small anxiety experiences n i'm thinking i'm recovering... Hopefully this'll help...

As far as medicine, don't do it, you really don't need more problems in your life. Withdrawing from those pills is almost harder than quitting heroin... So think about what you put in you...

Lsd causes hallucinations.

Hi, first of all I would like to say that we as humans, have been altering our conciousness for alot longer than we have tried to remain sober. Look at the number one, jesus christ, I am not saying that he ate mushrooms, but he deffinitly was not normal, talking to god, involved with angels , and I bet you if he was alive today, instead of crusifying him they would of sent him to a padded room and gave him enough drugs to break his spirit and make him drool, all by the ones that are respected and thought of as having the answer, like todays doctors.


I am not saying that doctors dont help, but I am saying that , there are no straight lines, and that reality is not definable, and that somtimes things are not as they seem.


Buddha, deffinitly into tripping out,

the early hindus, into taking mushrooms,

pretty much every culture has their , drug use, their poets, their artist, their saints, and their , crazies, I often wonder as us here in america ( the country with the highest number of disorders ) do not have a rich culture, being only a few hundred years old, and have replaced the old ways, of understanding with our doctor god, that dish out, pills to make us all lock steped into a reality that is not nesicarily, true,

oh yeah its a disease like diabetes and you better take your meds. Maybe it is ,

i bet if ghandi, jesus, leonardo, mozart, da vincci, buddha, einstein, columbus, etc etc etc. Lived in 21st century america, they would of been beleived to have some mental disorder, and been , counseled , drugged, and eventually become somone, that they were not. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worst, but ,,,,,,, take into account,, that drugs change you, effect reality, and alter your perception, yet it be lithium, acid, asprin, weed, depikote, or mushrooms, ]]

we have been doing drugs , since the beggining of time, to alter our conciousness,,,,, remember adam and eve.

It has only been the last few decades that our minds have been directed by tests, clinical trials and other humans with a licence, so we believe them, and give them power, \\

life allot of times is f ed up,,, we scarred by situations, child abuse, crappy hormones in chicken, the god of oprah, how about, the influx of information,,,,,,, look up somthing, and you can find information leading you in 10 different dirrections. What is true, what is right,what is real, is seeming to me to become more and more, difficult to find, and less important, as we let the status quo , become what we difine ourselves and our world by,,,


there has been stories and voices for along time, it is only recent that we have labled, medicated, and found it to be incorrect.


Dont get me wrong, things are still undecided ,,, what is right,,, what is wrong, and what is real, or unreal,

and somtimes , some doctors, therapy, and meds, do a world of good, and are huge help,

i think it is more mature to feel, and to, think deeper than our current, set of values and ideas,,, rather than, midlessly accepting what you are fed


feel for yourself

the poles could shift, any moment





adam

Just keep taking those meds, everything becomes clear when you do. I would also suggest you face your anxieties, little by little, and try to understand the different symptoms you are feeling. My psychiatrist has suggested that I try considering all the different possibilities of the phenomenom that I experience.

Don't drink ANY alchohol, or do ANY illegal drugs if you want to get well. they mess with your brain chemistry, and they slow down your progress. when i took my meds, didn't drink or do drugs, and slept enough, I was fine. It took months. Alchohol is bad for people with mental illnesses.

And to the person who said Buddha "definately liked tripping out" you have not studied buddhism, which preaches against the use of mind clouding substance use. In buddhism you try to produce a clear mind, not a drug addled frenzy. In fact seeking those special states of mind is just part of suffering. Do a google search for the three lords of materialism if you are curious about it.

I just smoked to much, now i got it. i can act in society normaly. But I never will be the old me again,I am still paranoid and think I am paranoid or is it real u know. darn