Hello, im 17 and ive spent the last few
months wondering if im depressed or not.
Ive looked it up etc, etc and I have some
symptoms, but I cant go and see my doctor,
as she is a aqqauintance of my mum, and I
know its patient confidentiality etc, but
I just dont think its very wise.
Anyway, the last two years of my life have
been really hard, in some major aspects.
But I felt I was coping ok. But I dont
think I am.
I wake up daily feeling tired and empty.
I put false smiles on for those around me,
as I dont want them to know. The only
person who I dont pretend to be happy
round is my boyfriend of 2 and a half
years, and I hate giving him the bad,
negative side of myself.
I feel really negative about myself all
the time, feel fat, ugly worthless and
like I dont deserve to be here. I get
frequent headches and stomach ache, and am
constantly tired-even though I go to bed
at 10 and get out at 7 daily (min)
sometimes I dont sleep, and if I do, even
for 10 hours, I wake up tired.
I cry nearly every day, and when im
sitting, not doing anything, I get upset,
but my mind is blank, and I have no idea
whats upsetting me. Its just, blank and
desolate in my mind.
My grades are good, which makes me think I
cant be depressed, but I really dont know.
I have a problem with food also and put
all my effort into making sure I dont
starve myself. I just dont know anymore,
but im sick of being fake-i feel like a
fraud and I hate crying all the time,
especially when its for no reason.
My mum doesnt believe in depression, so if
I do have it she wont accept it-so I hope
daily I dont, and worry what happens if I
do.
I just feel empty, tired, upset, stressed
and negative about everything all the time
and I just want to lie in bed.....Anyone
got a dignosis? Or any advice?
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Wesleyg
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 38 Location: Wisconsin, US
Posted: 05-21-05 12:05pm
Sounds like depression and or anxiety.
Check it out
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poetmcc
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Mar 2005 Posts: 273
Posted: 05-21-05 17:32pm
Hi amie how are you doing today? I am so
sorry to hear about your depression as it
sounds like. I'm no doctor but you sound
like you have all the symptoms of clinical
depression and going to a professional
would be the best thing for you. He/she
can also help you talk about it with your
mother to make her understand this better.
If they know your mother, it might be a
good thing because they can explain it to
her easier. And yes, the first few visits
can remain confidential if you want them
to though doctors often call parents if
they feel the patient's life is at risk.
Medication sounds like a good bet for you
too. Many people after taking meds feel
much better and return to regular happy
lives. You are only 17, please don't
waste your life, go to a Dr. And get
help, choose to live your precious life.
If you need to talk i'm there for you-
just pm me when you want to. Take care of
yourself. "everything will be all right
in the end and if it is not all right it
is not the end."
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amie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2005 Posts: 6
Posted: 05-22-05 05:52am
poetmcc
wrote:
hi amie how are you doing
today? I am so sorry to hear about your
depression as it sounds like. I'm no
doctor but you sound like you have all the
symptoms of clinical depression and going
to a professional would be the best thing
for you. He/she can also help you talk
about it with your mother to make her
understand this better. If they know
your mother, it might be a good thing
because they can explain it to her easier.
And yes, the first few visits can remain
confidential if you want them to though
doctors often call parents if they feel
the patient's life is at risk.
Medication sounds like a good bet for you
too. Many people after taking meds feel
much better and return to regular happy
lives. You are only 17, please don't
waste your life, go to a Dr. And get
help, choose to live your precious life.
If you need to talk i'm there for you-
just pm me when you want to. Take care
of yourself. "everything will be all
right in the end and if it is not all
right it is not the
end."
thankyou, your reply made me feel better
an your advice makes sense and rings true.
I shall look into dpression and look into
dates where I can see my doctor, or
another doctor. That quote is really
beautfiful, and I shall remeber it and
think about it daily.
And wesleyg thanks, ill have a look into
anxiety too.
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Wesleyg
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 38 Location: Wisconsin, US
Posted: 05-22-05 12:09pm
Yay I got thanked, thanks, you made my
day! :)
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jesticle
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 May 2005 Posts: 152 Location: Australia
Hey Amie Posted: 05-22-05 13:37pm
Im 18 and again have just been diagnosed
with depression I had it b4 and it does
definitly sound like you have it too.
When I was 14 I was diagnosed and my mum
didnt believe me when I told her she
doesn't believe in it though she has been
on anti-depessants b4 she hated the
thought that I was going to be on
medication and going to a councellor she
hated me because I had depression I had my
councellor and her best-friend talk to her
and she finally got it through her head
that I needed her to support me rather
than hate me for it. If your worried
about your doctor maybe look in2 a
different doctor.
I hope you mum understands it all and I
wish the very best for you if you ever
wana talk jess
mcgowan87@yahoo.Com i'd love sum1 2
talk 2 aswell
take care and goodluck hun
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amie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2005 Posts: 6
Re: Hey Amie Posted: 05-23-05 11:15am
jesticle
wrote:
im 18 and again have just
been diagnosed with depression I had it b4
and it does definitly sound like you have
it too. When I was 14 I was diagnosed
and my mum didnt believe me when I told
her she doesn't believe in it though she
has been on anti-depessants b4 she hated
the thought that I was going to be on
medication and going to a councellor she
hated me because I had depression I had my
councellor and her best-friend talk to her
and she finally got it through her head
that I needed her to support me rather
than hate me for it. If your worried
about your doctor maybe look in2 a
different doctor.
I hope you mum understands it all and I
wish the very best for you if you ever
wana talk jess
mcgowan87@yahoo.Com i'd love sum1 2
talk 2 aswell
take care and goodluck
hun
aww...Thankyou. Youre story is really
inspiring and gives me some strength! Ive
had a good day today, I was talking to a
friend and she told me shes been diagnosed
with it, and we had a good long talk. It
was nice to not feel so alien. But now,
after a ahppy afternoon, I feel down
again. But ill be ok.
Im going to book an appointment, with any
doctor, asap. I break from college on
friday, so fingers crossed I can see
someone quick!
Thanks for your e-mail address, I will use
it if I feel the need!
