Anybody With Any Ideas Please!!! Posted: 05-22-05 18:47pm
Im 19 years old and I feel im losing my
mind. I was doing hard drugs such as
cocaine or xtc but stopped a little bit
ago and I feel I might have caused me to
go insdie. I literally get so paranoid on
drugs that I was able to kick the habit
cuz I was so freakin scared to use again.
But the worst part is is the state of mind
has stayed with me. I get so nervous for
nothing and so suspicious and people and
things that I almost faint. I cant watch
court tv because I feel that they are
talking about my life. They talk about
actual events in my life! I am freaking
cracking oput of my school and im losing
all my friends becuase I shut myself away
in my apartment and rarely come out. Ive
been off of drugs for a while but the
state of mind has not left.. I dont
understnad. Everyone speaks in codes.
They imply what they mean but deont
straight out and say it. I know this for
fact though because it was finally exposed
and it had b een going on for years but I
jsut said I was being paranioid but a
recent inicident proved I wasnt overly
paranoid. To give one of many examples.
My neighbors aparmtnet got robbed.
Knowing of coruse that I didnt do it when
she was telling me about it I had to cut
the conversation short because I coudlnt
breath thinking that she might suspect me
of it and now she really might cuz I get
so nervous about not looknig nervous
knowing im looknig nervous. Im losing
it!!
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MissShortie
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2005 Posts: 146
Posted: 05-23-05 16:26pm
I really can't say ive experienced it
because ive never done any hard drugs, but
in a way your experiencing what some
people may experience on steroids, the
worst part of them can be when you
actually stop, it great you quit doing
drugs though! You should be feeling
better about yourself! I think you just
need to talk to someone about it, maybe
find a group, find something to let this
out, whats really driving you crazy is
yourself, your thinking about it too much!
Thinking about anything too much will
drive you crazy! Trust me I know! I have
my own issues, being through pretty severe
obsession compulsive disorder, I would
think the worst of things, caused me to
loose all my friends and shut myself away
in my house because I couldnt function
properly in public, finally when family
noticed I went to a doctor and was put on
meds, I got so much better and am off meds
now, (still have some of the disorder, but
im able to control myself now) please
don't shut yourself away your so young
still, get help, talk to people, and stop
thinking so much about the problem, think
of how you can fix it :)
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Tyler8635
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2005 Posts: 10 Location: The South
Tried It... Posted: 05-23-05 23:24pm
Everytime ive ever opened up to anybody no
body takes me seriously and then I start
panicking worse and think even they are
speaking in codes.. Dont have money to
see a doctor on my own... I dont know
what I have or what it is but want to know
if anyone else has the same problems and
if so how they are dealing with it but
thankyou for your help and concern.
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cat1111
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 May 2005 Posts: 9 Location: ireland
Posted: 05-24-05 05:37am
It sounds like u have been through
alot.Good on u for kickin the drugs.U need
to understand most people do talk in codes
there are not alot of people who are
straight talkers .It sounds like your 1 of
these honest caring straight talker .U
could be suffering from anxiety and
pannick attacks your not going mad?I
thought the same thing just be yourself
dont worry what other people think about u
thats their proplem not yours if you have
any q im happy to help good luck!
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Wesleyg
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 May 2005 Posts: 38 Location: Wisconsin, US
Posted: 05-24-05 22:29pm
Try taking more drugs they make you feel
good
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Tyler8635
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 May 2005 Posts: 10 Location: The South
I Dont Understand Posted: 05-25-05 19:25pm
What do you mean people do talk in codes
and they are the ones who are dishonest..
Whats making them dishonest.. I am more
confused by what u said now
