Bascially since I was young I expected
myself to have phomisis. Due to worry I
tried to retracted the foreskin and in my
frustration ripped part of the tip. Due
to ignorance thinking they would heal I
continued and now have various scars. It
is very unaccessible to clean under the
foreskin and regular hygiene couldnt
prevent (what I assume as) infection.
There are small white clusters that have
formed under the head of the penis which
are situated on the skin of the shaft
itself (not the head). These are painful
if pushed inward and have seemed to add in
size over time.
I'm very worried about this and have been
for a long time. Due to this I have been
reluctant to get close to girls and I
constantly feel that I may have caused
damage to the foreskin which girls would
be uncomfortable with, and if I was
circumcised (which is rarer in the uk) may
cause further uncomfortability. So what
do I do? Can the scars heal? I dont
think they can. If not if there any sort
of reconstruction I can have done? I
dont want to be circumcised but feel this
may be the only answer in my case (which I
feel is quite a rare one) - and if I did,
would the infection (the white clustered
bumps) disappear?
I really dont know what to do about this,
and I havent had the confidence to go to
anyone about this (especially a doctor) as
I feel they may look at this matter with
circumcision in mind only. Doubtless to
whether I had the courage to actually talk
about the issue that faces me.
Any reply to this matter would be much
appreciated as I have a lot of anxiety in
this area, (especially when it comes to
girls.)
