I've always wanted to be a mother. I've been pregnant before, but with out success. I'm pregnant again now. And inside I feel like i'm drowing in my fears. I want this baby, it wasn't planned, but I want it anyway.
Only problem is I can't fight this depression. This is surpose to be the happiest moment of my life. I was a heavy smoker before I got pregnant and quit cold turkey. I had one slip over the weekend.
I'm so scared of whats in store for me. Am I alone in feeling like this