I Do Not Have Anxiety...right? Posted: 06-03-05 00:15am
Today I woke up to myself.... I am not
who I once was.
I was that typical girl,
always doing things out of the ordinary
always the centre of attention
always acting before I thought
i was independant
i was outspoken and respected
i had a huge group of girlfriends
so what has happened.... Have I just
matured or is it deeper than that.
Today I signed up to this forum because I
need answers, they may not be that right
answers but I refuse to tell anyone that I
am struggling.
In two years lots has changed.....
I have become a control freak about
everything
- school work (i always have to top the
class)
- going to the gym, I have to go every
day
- I watch what I eat like crazy
- I rarely go out anymore because I am
focusing on school, something that I never
did
so whats wrong, it doesn't sound out of
the ordinary does it?
I am topping the class, I am motivated
with the gym, my body is in good shape, I
have a beautiful boyfriend and a loving
family.....
However I am nuts
one of my very close friends, who is quite
similar to me, told me that he is now
getting help because of his stress and
anxiety, maybe I should too.
I am pushing my boyfriend away because I
don't think that I am good enough for him,
I drive him insane with my jealous
outbursts and he has done nothing wrong.
Where can I get help.... Is this
stress.... All I want is to be perfect, I
know that is not normal.
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poetmcc
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Mar 2005 Posts: 273
Posted: 06-03-05 07:53am
Sorry dont mean to scare you but the
feeling odf having to be perfect is what
leads to eating disorders and ocd.
You say you are crazy about going to the
gym and waht you eat, these are all
warning signs. Wanting to be perfect is
the most devastatoing thing you can do to
yourself. Please follow your friend and
get help like she is- you guys can
motivate each other....
Pediatrician is good to start with and
they can refer you to a psychiatrist/
nutritionist/counselor, whoever you
need...
Take care of yourself, dont let eating
disorders or depression or the obsession
to be perfect happen to you- it opens up
pits of hell.
I am thinking of you ok. Pm me
anytime...I am there for you. Keep
posting on how you're doing.
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adambaum
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2005 Posts: 54 Location: Home- Peoria, IL
Thanks for your response... I know I need
help, but i'm not sure to what extent.
Things are easing up a little.... Since I
met my boyfriend I now don't feel so
guilty when I eat one piece of
chocolate.... Before I would run for
miles if I even licked anything sweet!
So I guess he has helped me... However
ever since he told me "you are the perfect
girlfriend all my friends are jealous" I
feel like I have to live up to it, and I
put so much energy into being his perfect
girlfriend that i'm tired!
I don't think I have an eating disorder, I
just care about what goes into my body....
My mum use to worry, but i'm getting
better....
Thank you again for the support
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Lennon
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jun 2005 Posts: 80 Location: Canada
Posted: 06-04-05 22:48pm
Perfect is overrated.............Everyone
you see on t.V. Isn't perfect.....That's
why they get divorced. Don't spend your
life worrying about a piece of
chocolate......Or running to make someone
else happy. You matter more than what you
think.
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lil mama3
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 May 2005 Posts: 68 Location: houston
I Think Ur Perfectly Fine Posted: 06-05-05 00:52am
:wink: I dont think their is any thing
rong with u. It sounds to me like ur just
doing what u have to do in life. I wish I
would of been motivated like u are, ur
trying to get ur education done, ur
waching ur weight and stuff like that. I
think is perfectly normal for a person to
act like that, who's traying to do
something for them self's. Now dont get
me rong, dont stress ur self always limit
ur self if u dont do everything in one
day, then it's fine just remember their is
alwayz another day. U know was so funny
tough that if someone dont do nothing in
life their is alwayz someone that has
something to say about them, and u that ur
trying to do something for ur self, u
think u have anxiety, well I dont think so
in my point of view. Now about u thinking
that ur boyfriend is to much for u then,
right their is not good baby girl, u
should love ur self and put ur self first
always maybe u have low-self esteem dont
ever say that a guy is to much for u
ok.......I hope my words help u on
something :wink: good luck
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