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GCyoungnhopeless

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Joined: 05 Nov 2003
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Location: Alabama

It's Me Again..i Need to Vent Posted: 11-12-03 22:01pm


omg!!!!!!! I just got back from a doctors appointment. No, I did not go on my own will. My mom made me! She found out I hadn't eaten in a month and I started passing out so she went absolutely insane! Now i've gotta get some blood work done to make sure all my stuff is working ok, and I have to go back to the doctor next week and get the results. He said that if I drop too much weight between now and then or something is wrong with one of my organs, guess where I get to go??? I've got a one way ticket to the hospital! Do you know what they're gonna do to me there????!!?! Put a incredibly feeding tube down my throat! I just know it!! I don't want that!!!! Ugh!!! I will not eat!! They can't make me!! (sorry, just needed to vent)

Forum Girl

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Joined: 15 Oct 2003
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Location: Orlando, Florida

You Are Hurting Yourself Posted: 11-12-03 23:17pm


Oohhhh darling. I know you don't think so right now but your mom is doing a very good thing for you. To be blunt, you are killing yourself. You probably don't think so at the moment but you are. Your mother sees it, your doctor sees it, i'm sure other people in your life see it. The first thing you have to understand is that no one, absolutely no one, is happy with the body they have. Some want to weigh less, have more muscles, a bigger chest, smaller thighs, blonde hair, different nose, etc. I myself am not happy with my body, there are parts I wish I could change. But you eventually realize that this is who you are, people love you regardless of what you look like and you learn to accept yourself. There are days I wish my belly was flatter, my thighs didn't jiggle as much and on those days, I work out a little harder and eat a little healthier and leave it at that. I've stopped striving for perfection and settled for being healthy. You think that not eating will bring you a better body and happiness. Let me tell you what it will really do to you. First off, you will have no energy. Just walking across the street will make you tired. Your skin will become sickly looking, your hair will begin to fall out and you will get the shakes. If it continues, your gums will begin to bleed, your teeth may fall out and your face will become sunken and hollow. Your internal organs will begin to shut down (kidneys, liver, etc) and by the time it gets this far, death is a very real possibility. In the end, instead of being more beautiful and happier, you will have no hair, very old looking skin, unable to even stand up and support your own weight. Stunning picture isn't it? You have started down a dangerous road that, unless you change something now, will lead you to a very early, painful death. Its a simple fact. People die from this every day. Think of the things you would miss out on when you are too weak to even sit up in bed or worse, you die. All the christmases left to come, birthdays, never having children, never having grandchildren, never traveling to all the places you've dreamed of traveling. You will miss out on life. I watched a very good friend battle anorexia in high school. It got so bad her parents sent her to another state to a treatment center for several months. She missed out on a lot and this was during our senior year. She threw away what was supposed to be the best year of school. You are right about the doctor. If you don't start changing things today, you will end up in the hospital - ivs in your arms, daily psychologist visits, etc. And if it got to the point that you needed a feeding tube, they don't stuff it down your throat, they make an incision in your abdomen and put the tube directly into your stomach. Leaves a nice scar you can show off during bikini season. Listen to your mom and listen to your doctors. They care about you and don't want you to destroy your life. I don't want you to destroy your life. Get yourself help and change things before it is too late. You don't want to miss out on the rest of your life. You'll always regret it.

kitty_55

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Sweetie Posted: 11-17-03 02:17am


Hey sweetie..You need to relixe how much you are hurting yourself..In the future you will regert it..Just start eatting alittle at a time..Do you drink enough water?Start by having an apple or a bannba or something. I wish you luck of getting better alison

Scaredteen

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Re: It's Me Again..i Need to Vent Posted: 11-20-03 22:34pm


Be careful, dont hurt urself, der r more ways to loose weight if thats wat ur after, eat healthy eat sumthin, even a lil dont starve ur self completely, ur mom is jus lookin out for u she cares bout u and doesnt wanna see u hurt

kristina ann bergner

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Joined: 11 Oct 2003
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Location: Sunnyvale, California

Posted: 11-21-03 02:51am


believe me you do not want a feeding tube. I had one when I was hospitalized 7 years ago and I still vividly remember it. That was the most pain I have ever experienced in my life. Also yu have to eat while on the tube, so not only are you getting calories literally shoved down your throat but you have to eat real food as well. The bloating and other nasty side effects are terrible. I know how it feels to be afraid to eat. Even after the tube I still have my periods of starvation. I have struggled with this disease for 30 years now (i'm 41) and it has cost me so much time, money, happiness. Still, if I had to do it over, I don't think I could cahnge what i've done. That's how strong the voice inside me, that's telling me I don't deserve to eat or that i'll get huge & gross if I do eat, is. I hear how desperate you are and I don't know how to help. When I was really down, no one coul reach me. But at least you are venting. Try to stay out of the hospital. Maybe you could begin by drinking some of that protein stuf, at least that wouldn't seem as frightening as real food. Your brain is starved right now so you can't think straight. Try to turn yourself over to the doctor & your family. They don't want you fat,either, just alive. I know it's hard to trust. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

txbanker

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Location: Texas

Been There Done That! Posted: 12-03-03 19:31pm


You have been given a lot of good advice from people you don't know but care desperately about you. Alot of us have done the same thing you are doing now and thank god I am still here to talk about it. I was 13 when my eating disorder started. Just like you I didn't eat, except I did drink 1 pepsi lite a day, that's it. I am now 43 yrs old and have battled with bulemia for 30 yrs. I have had both my hips replaced, one replaced twice, because of the calcium deficiencies. My bones started chipping away. I have been on anti-depressants for 20 yrs. My heart is suffering and I worry I will have a heart attack at any time. I could go on and on about how this disease has affected my life and my family. I will never look the way I want but I have accepted the way I look. I got off meds and became a vegetarian. I take vitamins, minerals, and herbs which have helped the cravings of carbs and sweets that made me binge. Please listen to the advise you are given. When I was your age no one knew about this disease at least not to talk about it. I'm sure you are beautiful the way you are and your family loves you and don't want you going anywhere. Some of us that have dealt with this disease for so long are lucky, others aren't so lucky. You can die from this disease. Talking to others really helps......Your not alone........Please continue to help yourself! :d

purple333

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Location: Sydney

Posted: 12-04-03 09:17am


Anorexia nervosa & bulimia etc are real & they are life threatening but aside from the fact that people have survived, there are also some people whose problems are different, caused by something different. My daughter was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa on 5/5/03 but now another dr is looking at wider ranging underlying causes & she is beginning (i pray) to feel that maybe she can actually survive this. If anyone wants more details email me purple33 3@email.Com

Munoz1226

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Joined: 23 Dec 2003
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Location: Tucson

Posted: 01-03-04 20:57pm


I am so sorry you are going through this! Everyone here has given the same advice I would give! Right now I am sure you feel like you do not have a future because you are so concerned that your weight will ruin everything for you! But just think about how sad your mother and family and friends will be if you die? I hate to be so blunt, but you will die and have no future at all. What a waste for such a young and intelligent person! The future needs people like you! If you can conquer this and get well think of what an inspiration you could be for another young girl in your shoes right now?! Don't get better for your mom or the rest of the world, do it for you! God gave you this soul and a body to protect it and you are hurting it and hurting your soul by beating yourself up with all these negative thoughts! I will pray for you and I truly hope you get well!