Ed At 19 - Desparate Need For Help.

This is my second post on this topic. The first got wiped out, and I have to re-write my story again, as if it wasn't hard enough the first time.

I'm going to come clean. I have masturbated since I was 15 years old. I am now 25, and I still do. The problem started when I was around 18. I was masturbating one day, and in the middle of it, I lost my erection. Since then, I have had weak erections, that haven't lasted long, and its even difficult for me to get one. I don't get morning erections anymore, and the power at which I urinate is also much weaker than before. I'm really scared of what the future holds, and i'm ashamed. I'm ashamed more because I have not done anything about my problem, because I am so scared. When the problem first started, I visited a gp, who told me to get a blood test to rule out diabetes. I never went to pick up the results. I don't know whats wrong with me. But now, more than ever I need to address this problem, as I will be married in a few months. The problem hasn't hit me in the face, as I am still a virgin and it hasn't posed a problem to my daily life.

I don't know how I have managed to go through 7 years of my life with this problem. During the age where I should have been sexually active, I had been worrying about my problem, and never had the courage to get a girlfriend, or take things 'one step further'. There is no one I can talk to about my problem either, not my family, nor my friends, because I am so embarassed. I know some of you reading this will be laughing your heads off at my expense, or pitying me, but so be it. I know my problem isn't psychological, and most likely I damaged something, somewhere while masturbating.

I've done research on the internet too, but nothing looks positive. Treatment drugs such as vaigra, cialis etc - all have side effects ,and since I have a minor heart condition, I may not be able to use them (maybe the heart condition might be a cause too). I would like just to have some treatment and get back to normal without having to inject myself, use drugs before sex, or use a vacuum device. I am at my wits end on what to do, I know I should go see a urologist, but i'm lacking in courage.

I need some help to do this, I am just so so lost. I come from a very close knit family, still living with my parents, and my wedding will be 'arranged' in the next few months, and I can't be unfair to my future wife if I don't deal with this (as well as being unfair to myself).

Please help me. I am in desperate need of help.