Well I am pretty stable. My worries are pretty stable. Its just that some mornings I wake up thinking about my future and having kids and I think that is a normal thing for many to do. I look forward to my future and having kids.
Its not easy living with anxiety. Its not something that you can put on hold when you plan on having a baby. Its something that I will have to deal with probably for the rest of my life. And *****it could possibly interfere with my pregnancy is what im worried about.****** I can not tell my anxiety to go away. Sometimes when you think you are all well and ready to take on life, another worry just creeps up into your mind and then you get anxiety symptoms that affect the way you live and feel.
I am however learning how to deal with it, especially my social anxiety. I dont take any meds. For me, I believe in mental work and it is very hard work. I think that I can beat most of my anxiety but am sure that there will always be that residual anxiety there.
My concern is that if I do end up becomming pregnant, will my anxiety symptoms increase? Im worried it will. Not just the main anxiety about the baby, but about my personal self as well such as tolerating being sick and just my mental health in general. Its really hard to explain if you do not suffer from anxiety on an almost daily basis.
Im also worried that my anxiety might predispose me to developing postpartum depression or some other mental condition. I am trying to think things through to prepare myself thats all. Am I a high risk factor to depression? Has anyone gone through this experience at all? Or has anyone suffered from anxiety prior to having a baby and they are doing well????