Ok so here's thie story.
I was diagnosed w/ bi-polar disorder in
november of last year so I don't know if
this is what i'm going through, but it
doesn't "feel" right.
-since maybe 3 weeks ago i've been hearing
strange noises like knocking that noboy
else in my house seems to hear.
-a few days ago I looked out my window and
I could swear I saw a man wearing a ski
mask staring in at me. I was so scared, I
could barely get up to get out of my room
I was so scared. I couldn't even scream.
So I got up to go to my brother's room to
have him check it out, he said that it
would have been impossible for someone to
have been there because there's a block
wall about a foot away from my window and
nobody would have fit there if they tried.
( I have barely been able to sleep since
then, I have to sleep w/ the tv and a
light on now i'm so scared)
-last night as I was on the computer I
looked down and I swear the color of the
floor was changing.
-i feel like somebody is allways over my
shoulder or watching me from afar
-i've allways been a very paranoid person
in general w/ random events, like I
remmeber this one time maybe 6 or 7 months
ago I was at my grandma's house alone and
I took a shower, as I was getting out of
the shower I could swear that I heard ppl
breaking into the house... I heard ppks
voices and evrytihng that they were saying
perfectly clear. And I was so scared I
just stayed in the bathroom until my
grandmas came home, hours later.
-lately I just haven't wanted to talk to
any of my friends, talk on the phone, or
go to the mall (which is very stange
behavior for me-i've allways been the one
to force evryone out to a party or the
mall) and the only person who i've been
talking to at all is my boyfriend (on the
phone) and I find my self not being able
to concentrate on him, but on the ceiling
fan that i';m staring at when he's on the
phone w/ me. I see his calls at night as
more of a comfort. I'm not as scared.
Please tell me what you think. Or e-mail
me
linkin_park_princess07@yahoo.Com
please please please. Help me.
