Joined: 20 Jun 2005 Posts: 70 Location: Geelong, Victoria, Australia
Can Someone Please Help.... Posted: 06-20-05 23:04pm
Hey guys my names chelsea n im 18....At
the moment im struggling with depression.
I shall start from the start as I really
need to get this off my chest.
Im supposed to be happy at my age so I
keep getting told but I am having heaps of
trouble just keeping a smile on my face
for a whole 5 minutes. And its all
because of my past.
When I was a little girl like before I
turned 7 n my dad moved out he used to
bash me...This isnt really the main cause
but I thought I should go through
everything first.
After he left I struggled to cope with the
idea of not having a father n I started to
believe that thats how relationships were
supposed to be full of violence n angry.
It toke me till I was about 11 to stop
blaming myself for my fathers attitude n
not long after that when I was 13 I
started to get sexually assualted.
I was dating this person n his mate mark
used to come around n bash me n rape me.
This went on for about 2 yrs at least once
a month with a gun to my head n a knife to
my throat.
I was so scared I neva told anyone. I
ended up falling pregnant with his baby
which I am now raising. To this day he
hasnt been reported n im supposed to be
seeing a pyschartrist this week to talk
about it for the first time ever.
I am really hoping this will help because
im not sure much else will anymore. My
relationship with my partner is falling
apart n I have turned bulemic again.
I am posting this post because I would
really like to be able to talk to someone
that has expienced the same sorta thing/s
as me and because I would really like to
know if anyone knows anywhere I can ring
to get help with being bulemic.
Thankz heaps guys u have no idea how much
I need this!!!
Luv chels
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damsel
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 May 2005 Posts: 69 Location: Melbourne, Australia
Posted: 06-21-05 01:03am
You sound like you have it worse than me,
i'm bulimic too but I have no excuse! I
hope your doing ok with your kid and
everything. What advice to give you, I
guess talking to someone about it would be
a really good start, and coming here to
this forum cos you'll realise we're all
going through the same kinda things, and
some people do overcome this disease (hard
to believe huh?). Admitting you even have
a problem is probably the biggest step,
the next step is really wanting to change
your behaviour. I've done both, but thats
as far as i've gotten, I dont't know what
the next step is. I know i'm probably no
help, but I just want you to know we're
all here for you and understand at least
some of the pain your feeling. I know you
must be scared, but please hold on! Xoxo
