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chels03

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Just Need Someone to Talk to Posted: 06-20-05 23:09pm


Hey guys my names chelsea n im 18....At the moment im struggling with depression. I shall start from the start as I really need to get this off my chest. Im supposed to be happy at my age so I keep getting told but I am having heaps of trouble just keeping a smile on my face for a whole 5 minutes. And its all because of my past. When I was a little girl like before I turned 7 n my dad moved out he used to bash me...This isnt really the main cause but I thought I should go through everything first. After he left I struggled to cope with the idea of not having a father n I started to believe that thats how relationships were supposed to be full of violence n angry. It toke me till I was about 11 to stop blaming myself for my fathers attitude n not long after that when I was 13 I started to get sexually assualted. I was dating this person n his mate mark used to come around n bash me n rape me. This went on for about 2 yrs at least once a month with a gun to my head n a knife to my throat. I was so scared I neva told anyone. I ended up falling pregnant with his baby which I am now raising. To this day he hasnt been reported n im supposed to be seeing a pyschartrist this week to talk about it for the first time ever. I am really hoping this will help because im not sure much else will anymore. My relationship with my partner is falling apart n I have turned bulemic again. I am posting this post because I would really like to be able to talk to someone that has expienced the same sorta thing/s as me and because I would really like to know if anyone knows anywhere I can ring to get help with being bulemic. Thankz heaps guys u have no idea how much I need this!!! Luv chels

Lisa01443

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Dont Fret Posted: 06-21-05 10:05am


Hiya my name is lisa I live in wales in the uk. Let me start with telling you that life is worth everything I suffer from depression and I self harm terribly in the worst ways. I now how it feels to be abused although I was not sexually abbused I was battered from all four walls in my house and never got on with my family untill I was 16 and moved out, now I get along with my mum. Dont lose heart and remember you have a beutiful child out of all this and he needs his mum more than anything. You need to doi something diferent and let you boyfriend now in to your heart, I did that an I am slowly stopping cutting myself and overdosing I have not been in hospital now for a year were as I was there every other week b4. Let me now how you get on my email is :wink:

babygiraffe123

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Need Someone 2 Talk 2? Posted: 06-21-05 13:14pm


Hello, I also suffer from depression, so I know what you're going through. I have suffered unbearable heartbreak in my life and I am only 23 years old. First, I was sexually assaulted by my mom's brother in law when I was 5 years old, then he turned around and killed my aunt (his wife) when she confronted him about it, then there was my father's severe drinking problem, not to mention having a best friend who tried to kill me repeatedly, being the school nerd, losing my beloved grandmother in 2000, and not being able to trust anybody. Plus I also suffer from severe anxiety and panic attacks, and a devastating fear of social situations. I have been on effexor for 4 years. If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to email me. My name is caroline and I am at: baby giraffe123@yahoo.Ca i am always looking 4 someone 2 correspond with.

Lisa01443

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Posted: 06-22-05 10:05am


Hiya its lisa agasin hope you feel better today , my email is pugh_ 777@hotmail.Co.Uk if you need to talk

Lisa01443

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Posted: 06-22-05 10:05am


Hiya its lisa agasin hope you feel better today , my email is pugh_ 777@hotmail.Co.Uk if you need to talk

Ruined

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All I Do Is Cry. Posted: 10-29-07 22:06pm


I am the typical girl who everyone thinks is fine. It’s what is inside that counts right? We’ve been told that our whole life. Well what is inside is broken, what is inside is hurt, so that counts…but only to me. Why -- Because I’m the only one who knows. I get up everyday with the intentions for something better to happen. Everyday I deal with the fact that I am living a complete and total lie. Everyday I am hurting, everyday I am waiting for the moment when I can sneak away from my desk at work, turn on the water in the bathroom and cry. Everyday a text message comes from my boyfriend, everyday another lie starts, no matter if it is what he did last night, or who is was with, or where he will be tonight. Every lie starts with every single word that is drained from his mouth. Every single word, I don’t trust…every word I can’t depend on. All I wanted from this was someone to be there, someone to grow with, and someone to love and laugh with. Now, after all this time… holding his hand is asking to much, never mind a kiss in public. I understand, the cuteness dies, but since when does loving a person have to be such a chore. He says he loves me yes…and behind close doors he can love me, or it can turn into a battle. Everything is a secret to me, everything is too much. I can’t talk back, I can’t rise my voice, I can’t even have a little bit of a freak out over something. I can’t show up for a surprise, I can’t even ask a simple question “why?” Everything I do he says makes his mad, everything I say is saying too much. I can’t go out with his friends. I’m not even allowed to know where he’s going because when I go out and have a few drinks I'm the drama queen. I am a health forum, and I’m selfish and when I ask him for a simple favor “All you think about is yourself”. But just when I am getting mad, just when I am feeling upset, the “I’m sorry baby, not tonight…” or “I told you baby, I had plans” EVERY SINGLE NIGHT? Every night he says plans, every night he’s sorry…just when I wanna be mad, just when I want to give up. I scream into my pillow because I don’t want my parents to think that we’re having another fight. But if I carry out the fight, I get a “Suck it up…it’s not a big deal” But what if it is a big deal? What if I really needed him? What if all I wanted was to know that he loves me, or that I am pretty, or that I’m freaking worth it. How can one person knock you down… how can the one person that you give it all too, just turn around and treat you the way they do? Why am I not worth it? Why am I not the fight that he’s willing to work for… Everything I do makes him angry. Everything I do is just too much for him to handle. My mom says its abuse… I just want to know why I can’t just walk away. Everyone tells me I can…but why can’t I tell myself? Sincerely, Ruined.

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Totally Honest Posted: 10-30-07 04:54am


He is either: Married Gay Cheating on you Or a fool and approach with caution I would not take that in any of the above sinario's. Hard I know, but there are lots more fish in the see and you are still to young to let this person abuse you this way. Think what it would be like spending the rest of you lif with this person. There has to be some line drawn here. You have a lot in you past that needs to come to closure. It is not easy. Not with what you have been through. Most girls or woman that this has happened to are never able to have a good relationship for the haunted past. My heart goes out to you. In my thoughts, Carrie Carrie Last edited by CarolDiane on 10-30-07 05:06am; edited 1 time in total

sexxybexxy

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Posted: 10-30-07 05:03am


no-one should be treated the way in which you are and you should walk away from him. As things coiuld get worse and you will think that you have had enough only you will wont to stay with the filthy cheater.

Ruined

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Posted: 10-30-07 16:23pm


Thanks for the quick reply. I can't even explain how it feels to think that I'm alone. It's hard because my family is next to impossible to talk with about things like this, because it's as if I am expected to be smarter then this, or stronger. ...But I'm not right now... My friends are sick of hearing that we're fighting...so their not a help either. Sometimes a person just needs someone to talk to, even if I don't know you...I just need someone.......

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Ya Know Posted: 10-30-07 16:59pm


I have found that in todays busy world where most often both parents work or a single parent has to work, communication within the family has broken down so badly. It is a real shame that parents now days are so busy with their own lives and trying to support the family that they have no time to sit down and chat with their kids. I blame most if not all for todays problems with young teens for this. Parents have got to make time for their children. There is no excuse for this in my book. Parents come home from work, they are tired and snap at their kids for no reason at all. I admit, it is a hard world to face for a parent now days. That is why so many new couples have opted not to even have children. Also, there will never be a good family relationship if the parent does not communicate. That is why kids go to drugs etc, as an escape from reality. It's sometime a wonder why kids don't want to go home after school or work. It's a wonder we all here have deppression, anxiety and stress. Even my own son (who I live with) had to go see a shrink for medication. He is so stressed out, he snaps at me for every little thing. It is a stressful working world out there gang. A note to parents: Start listening to your children. Let them know that you are there for them and have that unconditional love that no matter what the issue is, they can always come to you for help. I can not stress how important this is! Does this make any sense to anyone. Are any of you going through this? Carrie