I Have Been Throwing Up Way Too Much Lately Posted: 06-25-05 16:40pm
My bulimia started 15 years ago!!!!!!!!
I went years without doing it, yes, I did
see psychologists about it
my current pschiatrist knows I have it.
He never prescribed me for any medication,
just told me about how they are
researching something now
anyways, more stress added into my life in
a short period of time
have so many things going on.
I just brokeup with my boyfriend, who
happened to be my best friend
and he has bipolar
and he had been flipping out on me
so I had to leave him,
can't ever see him again, because I do
know the deftition of insanity...
He has been violent, and tried to leave me
in the parking lot
when he thought I cheated on him, but I
never did
he would have taken my purse, and I would
be stranded
in the middle of the night
later, he said he was just talking crap,
but that is just not acceptable
for he claimed he loved me so much, and I
could be the mother of his kids
( I never wanted kids)
i obviously have problems with food,
weight, and body issues
i have to get healthy, and my head
straight.
Having kids I would eat all their snacks,
I would have birthday parties
with 50 cupcakes , :)
ok bad joke. Ughhh
i have been throwing up way too much
lately,
if I had the money I would go to an eating
disorder clinic
my brother who has bipolar temporalily
moved in here
and he is on new medication, and he is
talking non stop, even right now
and I just want to scream, too much stress
man, my life sucks right now
thank you for listening, anyone who reads
this, bless your heart
you are very kind
i am grateful for this board
everyone have a decent day today!
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lostoyou
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2004 Posts: 170 Location: Ireland
Posted: 06-25-05 17:21pm
Hey hun, you know you can and will get
through this. Unfortunally life can be
caca at times and your not on your own
there but remember that there are always
better times to come and they will.
Just one thing about the medication, I
would not recommend taking that because my
friend who also had an eating disorder
died last month because she had been on
medication for many years and as a result
a brain tumor formed and by the time the
found it it was too late. Plus medication
only supresses your feelings, you need to
talk about them in order to help you deal
with them and understand them.
15 years is along time, too long, I really
think you deserve to get help, you need it
and your life will be so much freer when
you are recovered. If you can try and
find a therapy place that have therapists
that have had personal experinces with
eating disorders because the place that I
go to all of my therapists are fulling
recovered from their ed but know exaclty
what i'm going through and understand
where i'm coming from, you know so I think
thats the better one to go for.
I know it must of been tough to leave your
boyfriend but you know yourself whether it
was the right thing to do, you love
someone for who the are and how they make
you feel, you can't love someone because
they need you or rely on you, thats not a
relationship.
Perhaps for the moment you could think
about just taking a break from
relationships because really the most
important relationship you can have is
with yourself and then others can follow.
Learn to love yourself first and then you
will be able to love others and you will
allow other people to love you, for who
you truely are.
Times are though but they will get better,
they will but your not alone, your never
alone ok.
I hope your day is going well, take good
care of yourself
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Ashley-kate
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Jun 2005 Posts: 13 Location: Quebec
Dangerous Posted: 06-27-05 18:36pm
If you make yourself sick it is very very
dangerous not only for your throught or
anything but you will lose a lot of
potassium wich is a substancethat make
your heart beat the less you have you are
closer and closer to cardiac arrest and it
is very dangerous you should consider
going to see a dr to talk about it I know
it is not easy and if you already did
congrat but yu need to get help to stop..
I know I must sound pretty ameture saying
htis cause I only ad this for 4 years I am
17 now and well you lived it longer so I
can only imagine the caca your going threw
so go get help if you can
