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sarahk

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Posted: 06-27-05 11:07am

I'm probably setting myself up for a complete attack here but maybe some of you guys might find it helpful to hear why some women have abortions. Its not all because we are malicious child killers who are sl*ts and irresponsible with contraception!!!

I was in a relationship and had just brought my first house with my partner. I used to be on the bcp but I had an allergic reaction that made me very ill and I lot alot of blood. I was unable to go in the injection, implant or even the coil because they all have a similar type of hormone and my doctors didnt want to risk it. I had always been very careful when it came to contraception, i'm very body concious and never had sex without using some form of contraceptive.

I was using condoms when I fell pregnant, it was a complete shock as I didnt even know one had split. I'm not by any means a promiscuous person! I was in a loving relationship with the man I planned to marry, after'all we had just brought our frist house together and I had just made it to where I needed to be in my career.

When I found out I was pregnant, although it was a shock, I was happy. I loved my boyfriend and knew I would start a family with him some day, just didnt realise it would be that soon!

As soon as I told my partner my bubble was burst. He changed and wouldnt kiss me or touch me, he said that I would be selfish to have this baby without his consent and he (in his own words) 'didnt want to know'. He turned on me and made me feel very alone, he said we would lose our house as we were struggling on two salaries as it was and that he wouldnt help me. It didnt end there. My family were also dead against me having the baby. My dad had recently suffered a heart attack and I was told if I went ahead with it the stress could kill him. They also told me I would lose my house and they werent prepared to help me.

I begged and pleaded with my boyfriend and my family, but they went ahead and made the arrangements for me. They told me my baby was nothing more than a blob of cells (even the doctor told me that) and if I get it done as soon as possible I wouldnt be killing a baby, it would be a mere blob of tissue. <- dont get me wrong, I found out after what a load of cr*p that was, but at the time my family and my doctor were my only source of information. I didnt have access to the internet and after all, your supposed to trust doctors arent you?!!!!

I regreted my abortion, it wasnt something I wanted to do, but I was pushed into a corner. My dad had been very ill and only just released from hospital I was petrefied I would cause him another heart attack.

Alot of girls are coerced into abortions. Most pro-life people have that belief brought up in their family. For those of you who have, you are very lucky. I always believed that abortion is ok for some people, but never me, so it was horrible that I was forced against my belief system.

Dont get me wrong, I know I allowed them to take me to the clinic to have the procedure and I do blame myself for not being strong enough to stand up for myself. I was just being pushed by the people who I loved the most...Who I now hate the most.
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Posted: 06-27-05 11:21am

Sarah I am so sorry that you were treated like that by the very people that should have stuck by you.

I do not judge the person I judge the act i'm not to sure but are you the same sarah that I pm;d to apologise on behalf of pl as you had some pretty heavy insults flung at you in the support forum?
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Posted: 06-27-05 11:25am

Fishx - yep, that was me! I just thought that maybe if people understand that not all women say 'whoops, i'm preggas, oh well will just have an abortion!'. I know there are some women out there that do that and I think its very wrong.

I also think it was wrong that I had an abortion, but I the time it felt like the only option. It was a devestating and life changing experience that I would never wish on abybody.
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Posted: 06-27-05 11:38am

A re you feeling better now though you don't seem so down as last time I posted to you ?

It was so very wrong what you had to go through and I really cannot imagine how it must feel I really do hope that you feel better about it soon.
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Posted: 06-27-05 12:29pm

sarahk wrote:
fishx - yep, that was me! I just thought that maybe if people understand that not all women say 'whoops, i'm preggas, oh well will just have an abortion!'. I know there are some women out there that do that and I think its very wrong.

I also think it was wrong that I had an abortion, but I the time it felt like the only option. It was a devestating and life changing experience that I would never wish on abybody.




we do have more understanding than is lead to believe,it is just that most pro choicers deny that people like you exist.According to them no one regrets abortion and no one is forced into it,which you are a living example of.You won't get attacked by pro life but pro choice might have a problem with what you said.It goes against everything they say.
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Posted: 06-27-05 17:50pm

Sarah I am sorry to hear how you were treated, I personally feel you were bullied into it.
After all you did say you were happy to be pregnant.
I don't feel you took your path out of free will.

See my opinion is that abortion is not birth control. Unfortunately many many girls and women do not bother with methods of contraception because they know an abortion is available should they "get caught" as it were. In fact most of these are quite probably the same ones who think "it'll never happen to me".
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Posted: 06-27-05 19:13pm

Abortion is not birth control...I don't know where you h=got tha tfrom but it's not---at all! Birth control is stuff like condoms, birth control pills, the patch, diaphrams (they prevent people from getting pregnant...Where as abortions end the pregnancies by killing unborn babies so the mother doesn't have to have them) which is ignorant.
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Posted: 06-27-05 19:29pm

Having fun? How old are you like 12?
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sarahk

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Posted: 06-28-05 03:32am

Fishx - I think i'm doing ok. I still think about it alot. Mom2trevor gave me a link to a very good site where there are alot of women who were in the same shoes as me and ive found it very helpful.

Ive split up with the abortion father after 4 years which has helped alot. There was too much resentment for what he did. I'm finding it hard with my parents, but I have many close friends arround me now and I truely feel I have my head on my shoulders!

Yes, I still get sad. But I guess thats something I will just have to live with.
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Posted: 06-28-05 17:33pm

Sarahk, you will be fine, it is not your fault, you will move on, it will get easier, we pretty much all do have negative parts in our pasts.
You are not a bad person!!!!!!
Sincerely,
sandy
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Posted: 06-30-05 01:35am

Dear sarahk
i thought you had stopped posting messages and i'm really happy to see you on the blog again. If I knew how to private message you I would but I can't figure it out. Anyway, I want you to know that I am here in the usa and I think we share our experience of having an abortion even though we were happy to be expecting a baby, and are now living with the regrets. It is so hard to go on. Just wanted to let you know that it's nice to see your letters again.
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sarahk

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Posted: 06-30-05 03:18am

Hi thumbelina!

Yes, I left for a while because of some nasty messages I kept getting, but things seem to have died down now!
There is another forum I have been visiting that is really interesting and helped me alot, you may find it useful too because there are several different forums about abortion all for women like us. People who were coerced, seriously greaving as well as many others. I will try and pm you the website.

Take care

sarah x
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Posted: 06-30-05 17:54pm

Dear skar,

thank you!

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