I Am So Stttttttrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeedd

:( I currently do not have any free spending money
i broke up with my crazy boyfriend who is still giving me a hard time from his mean emails

i don't want to play any mind games in life

i am too old for this anyways

i wish god,angels, someone somehow would give me a hundred and 50 dollar gift certificate so I could have a nice spa day
get a massage, sit in a hot tub
get a facial, I never got a facial in my life

so many other things going on
i have no support really, I also need to get a car

i am on anti anxiety meds,
no medicine is going to help me out with money, getting a safe reliable used car,
i feel like I am going to die if I don't get some help
i feel like if I just dropped dead, it would be from too much stress
too many hard knots in my upper back and neck and shoulders

ugh
i feel llike from the past 5 years, my life has been one endurance test

god help me

i know the world does not owe me anything, I just wish and pray that I can get a break, some relief, for even just one day

i wish I could win a new car, and one day to a spa

i am too stressed to even do my own nails, I took on so much karma
dealing with a hundered and one things, that were all negative
and then I fell into crisis mode when my boyfriend turned all his anger out on me, he spit at me yelled and cursed
so I had to leave
now he is saying lies about me,wrote me about 70 mean emails
when I was younger I was known as the pretty, beautiful one
now I am 60 pounds overweight, people no longer recongize me
i look older than I am, now I look like 50 mac trucks ran over me and put it in reverse and ran over me again
i look like and feel like crap
i wish I had money, I would pay for someone to take care of me for a month.
And now and then after, people need nice kind supportive people in life
i could not do this alone

prayers are so appreciated,l hope everyone on this msg board has a great happy healthy safe good abundant day