Someone Please Help Me Find Myself Posted: 11-18-03 01:20am
i'm 21year old female who will be turning
22 in december
i lost my bestfriend march 2001...Before
his passing I was
free loving,easy going, adventurous, not
afraid of life...Since his passing
i've become someone I dont even like (i am
not suicidal)i am just
i go thru things I cannot
explain...Serious pains in my arms
feels like i've been laying on them to
long, I get stiff neck
stiff shoulders...Digestion is bad..I get
headaches often...
I also fear everything.. Im afraid of
dying..I'm so afraid of having
a "heart attack" this is my worst
fear..Every little pain I have
I fear a heart attack..I'm afraid of
going out the house, I afraid of malls
i'm afraid my mom,dad,friends are going to
die..I'm afraid i'm
going to die...This is really taking a tol
on me..I've gained over 80lbs in the last
year....It's not good because I dont walk
enough because i'm scared walking will
give me a heartattack
i also have moodswings from time to
time..
But the minute I get upset I get this pain
in my chest
like little stabbin/pinchin feelings
i've been given "lorazepam 1mg" by my
doctor
i take 1/2 of one when I feel i'm starting
to get nervous
i dont want to live my life this way
please someone give me advice
thankyou in advance
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charlie22x
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Nov 2003 Posts: 3 Location: dagenham
Hi Posted: 11-23-03 05:54am
Hi, everything you said is the same as
what I am getting, I have never suffered
from anxiety befre but I had a very bad
year this year and now I am getting all
the symptoms you are getting, if you ever
wanna chat to me pm me would like to talk
with you. Good luck
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 12-20-03 11:15am
You can & will find yourself. You
have taken some steps & recognized
some problems & the probale cause of
all this so you're moer than half way
there. You are amazing to have achieved
all this at such a young age, many people
start suffering at a young age, even know
why but they don't seek help or recognize
the symptoms they just see their life as
lousy.
Be proud of yourself!! Yes, I am serious
be proud & then keep seeking help then
all you'll have to do is maybe the hardest
part take the help (do it!!).
Your friend died (how? This may affect
what you need to do) so you are naturally
grieving & part of that is fear that
you or others near to you will also die.
That too is natural.
Look up natural sources of tryptophan on a
search engine(the answerswill include
turkey, ricotta cheese, most nuts etc etc)
this chemical will help balance stress
levels in your brain & so help you
cope. If dhea is available to you my
daughters psychiatrist told me that he
starts his patients on 100mg p.D. Then
when things level out goes down to 50mg
p.D & aside from helping
anxiety/stress/depression etc it can also
help reduce stress & give you some
energy which in turn might help get you
out for a 30 minute walk each day
(preferably between 6 & 7 am as this
is when the sun - even if it's overcast -
works on our brain chemicals to reduce
stress.
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Munoz1226
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Dec 2003 Posts: 130 Location: Tucson
Find Yourself Posted: 01-05-04 19:33pm
It sounds an awful lot like anxiety.
My father passed away when I was fourteen.
He was an alcoholic and he ended up
drinking rubbing alcohol and perfume and
all kinds of other stuff and he ended up
having a heart attack. It was unexpected.
He was very sick, but he was sick and got
well so many other times that we thought
he would get better again.
Before he passed, I was such an outgoing
and free spirited girl too. I hung out
with my friends and was relaxed and all
that good feeling stuff. After he died I
was so paranoid that I was next or that my
mom or brother or someone I was close to
was next. I was a nervous wreck. I have
become very obssessed with my health since
he passed. I have had problems with panic
attacks in the past and even now I can be
at the mall and get really nervous and
feel like I want to run out of there as
fast as I can. I feel so much safer at
home or near people who can reassure I am
okay. There have been days that I will
get a physical symptom I have never had
before and I swear I am going to die any
second! Lately I have been having a weird
throbbing achey pain in my left arm and
into my chest! You can bet I am freaked
out!
See I decided to learn as much about panic
disorder and anxiety and stress as I
could. I went to my local library and
checked out a bunch of books and started
to read about all of this and learned some
really good exercises that would help in
my worst moments. I learned that a lot of
what I was feeling after my dad died was
stress related and grief.
I strongly suggest starting a journal and
keeping track of your grief. I also made
an angel catcher. The book consists of
pictures of my dad and all sorts of
memories written down. There are pages
that have anger all over them and sadness
and then there is also a page about what
he did that made me laugh or smile. The
point of the book was to help me clear my
mind of grief.
Join a counseling group of people who feel
the same as you. You would be surprised
how many people go through the same
things!
I will say a prayer for you! Best wishes!
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souldrive
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Jan 2004 Posts: 1 Location: Virginia, U.S.A.
Anxiety Posted: 01-15-04 12:54pm
Hi, i'm going through the same
things...Except for the weight gain....My
acid reflux only allows me to eat tiny
meals. Back in august I lost my mom, then
two and a half weeks later I had my baby.
I'm alone all the time because my bf works
all day, I don't have any friends, my
relatives are far away and i'm scared to
drive, to go out on my own. I'd like to
get out of the house, and to work, but we
can't afford childcare...My medicaid
stopped after I had my baby, so i'm
uninsured and so scared i'll run up
hospital bills that i've already landed in
the emergency room once from
panicking.....I'm afraid i'm dying, that
others in my life are dying...I constantly
check on my baby's and my bf to make sure
they are still breathing. My mom died in
her sleep and there was no explanation,
now I can't go anywhere or do anything
without envisioning all the ways I could
die or my loved ones could die at any
given moment. Plus with the stresses of
raising a baby without my mom or any
female role model, my asthma has gotten
worse, i've started getting anxiety/panic
(don't know the difference?) attacks that
feel like heart attacks. And i've
developed acid reflux and none of the
otc's are working, I can't afford a
prescription, severe heartburn keeps me up
all night and I get no relief...I have it
in the daytime too.....My life is a
mess.....
I sincerely hope that things get better
soon for you and i...And anyone else who's
feeling this way, it's really horrible
when you're too scared to live your
life....Best of luck!
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sami_1982
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Dec 2003 Posts: 200 Location: Australia
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Posted: 01-16-04 14:04pm
Hey everyone.
When a traumatic even
has happened recently in someones life and
even up to 7 yrs later ptsd can occur out
of the blue. Prehaps yuo should talk to
your doctors about that it manafests
itself like anxiety. The doctors thought
that I had anxiety and they were right I
do slightly. But I also had my first
seizure 3 months ago and they found out
that I have temporal lobe epilepsy, so
while I was thinking I had the worst of
the worst things wrong with me like a
brain tumor or that iwas going to die I
searched the internet and I found out alot
of things. Do a google search on post
traumatic stress disorder. Then see if
the symptoms fit your descripttions and
people ptsd goes away. You can gain your
life back.
Take care if you would like to contact me
I can help your search the net for info
mckay_2
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