Living With Parents And Down And Up And Wahhhh Posted: 07-12-05 02:28am
:evil:
well, I have discovered the root of my
pain through much work and my ability to
see my own perceptions! It's seems like I
feel verydifferent from everyone! Like I
am an alien out of this world :shock: and
I often feel I am not the person my
parents want me to be - and they think
that my life vision is absolute
nonsense... Which is pretty hard when
you're just trying to be yourself and live
together still at the same time.
I just want my parents to love me and
accept me as I am - I hope one day they
will understand my dreams and passions
(alternative therapies, expressive arts,
dance, travel) and love me for who I am.
I want to live my life but and just be
myself.. But there's a part of me that
wants to make mommy and daddy super proud
and whenever I don't I feel like an
absolute failure and inadeqaute... I know
that this story/cycle keeps me in the
anxious to please and depressed when I
don't downward cycle... But it's hard to
beat.
