Cutting Always In the Back of My Mind... Posted: 07-14-05 05:37am
I have no idea why. I started a couple
of years ago and it only lasted a few
months...My boyfriend found out so I felt
stupid and embarrassed and I stopped.
For the past few years it's always been in
the back of my mind but i've always
thought to myself "my body doesn't deserve
to suffer for what's going on outside".
I've never really told anyone about it
though, and the only comment I got from my
mum was that it was stupid and she hoped
i'd never do it again. A few weeks after
my bro found out that I had cut my arms I
actually found out that he had bashed his
knuckles up, so I think that's what really
made me stop. But now I don't live at
home and recently i've really been feeling
the urge to cut again. I just tried to
talk to my boyfriend (whom i'm living with
now) about it but he just seemed all
uncomfortable and shrugged it off like he
didn't think I was serious. It was hard
enough for me to start to talk about it
because i'm really embarrassed, so I don't
know what to do... Someone please give me
a clue as to what to do to take my mind
off it! I feel like the only person who
could help me would be a professional.
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flyingsolo
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Jul 2005 Posts: 6
Posted: 07-14-05 08:10am
It doesn't seem like your boyfriend is
helping, you probably should see a
professional if you can its very important
to discover why you're cutting and they
can help you with that. You can try
running or excercise it always seemed to
make me feel better, or maybe writing how
you feel at the moments before you cut. I
can't gaurantee any of those will work but
its worth a try. I would talk to a
professional or some adult at my school
that I really trust if it weren't for the
fact they'd tell my parents and that just
can't happen so... Yeah. I know its
really hard to stop once you get started
so just keep that in mind, you can read my
posts and see if there's anything there
that helps, good luck!
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leah23
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jul 2005 Posts: 42 Location: adelaide
You Are Not Alone Posted: 07-14-05 09:55am
About 7 months ago the exact same thing
was happening to me. It drove me crazy
and scared the caca out of me at the same
time. I havent thought about it for about
4mnths now and that makes me very happy
although the other day I had a miscarriage
and out of frustration and not knowing how
to deal with the many emotions that go
with it the thoughts came back to me. I
instantly replaced them with anything I
could think of that was positive then it
went away. Just remember you are in
control of your thoughts and actions even
though at times it may feel like you are
not.if you need a chat feel free to drop
me a line I only discovered this tonight
but I think I will frequent it regulary.
Take care sweetie xo I look forward to
chatting with you :)
