Hello,
lately I have been feeling more down
then usual my usual is like just numb to
everything I don't feel happy but nore do
I feel sad I stay normally stable at
wellnumb.. But latly I have been crying
over the slightess detail like someone
forgot to put the lid back on the sugar or
put the soap back in te right spot .. I
feel just so week cause these feelings are
tearing me down. I shut my eyes at night
praying to never have to open them again
and face the cruel world I live in
everyday... This summer I am at my dads
house wich explains a lot of my sadness I
been hospitalised twice in the past for a
burn out at 15 years old and a suicide
attempt at 16.. Both after a rtrip to my
dad's this summer is the longest I have
been with him. It's been now 4 weeks
almost I am going home soon but I don't
know how to boost my self esteem after him
tarring it down
please help I don't want to be this way
anymore
ashley-kate
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poetmcc
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Mar 2005 Posts: 273
Posted: 07-22-05 08:53am
Hi ashley, how are you doing? You are
definetely suffering from depression like
millions of other people. And there is
help out there! There really is, you
just have to give it a chance!
Boosting your self- esteem is a difficult
task and often one can benefit from a
counselor or Dr.'s help. So if I am
right is your dad part of the depression
problem? Because if he is, then maybe
both of you need family counseling where
people work with you to get along and
solve differences.
I am sorry if I am rambling, I just want
to let you know I am listening, pm me if
you need to and let me know how you are.
Keep your chin up, I know you can get
through this if you have twice in the
past, you are admirable brave.
Take care and don't forget to smile-
soimetimes that's all it takes.
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Zabrina
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Jul 2005 Posts: 67
Posted: 07-22-05 13:52pm
Its hard to live with someone like your
dad. Think of the future. Everything
will work out. It doesnt seem like it
now,but it will.My husband had a terrable
father but he's happy now and has two
wonderful kids.Never think of killing
yourself no matter how bad things seem.
Ive felt completely hopeless before but
things work out. Dont deney yourself a
happy future.
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Jemini
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2005 Posts: 58 Location: Australia
Posted: 07-22-05 21:07pm
You have your whole life ahead of you
remember that.
Family is also something that will always
be there for you no matter what.
We all go through a phase as we are
growing up that we can't relate to our
family members or "get along" because they
don't seem to understand you.
As I was growing up I couldn't stand my
mum and dad, and as soon as I able to
drive and have my own car I tried to never
be home. As soon as I turned 18 (legally
an "adult" australia/new zealand) I moved
out as far away as I could.
But then eventually I began to realise
that you need your family. I'm 25 now and
i'm starting to be a bit more closer to my
mum and my dad. The too are both
divorced.
Eventually things do get better, may not
feel like it but it does. As for boosting
your self-esteem its one of those things
where you as yourself is the biggest
critoriser (sp?) and starting from the
inside to out eventaully you be back on
top of the world!
