Joined: 05 Jul 2005 Posts: 4 Location: Turlock , CA
I Feel Alone. Posted: 07-16-05 03:03am
I don't know what to do anymore with my
life.
No matter how hard I try to better it, it
always takes every turn for the worse.
The last year of my life has been hell. I
was in love, and we broke up, and i've
been unable to move on. I've tried to
replace him, to forget about him and i,
but it doesn't work. He and I are still
very close-probably one of two of best
friends that I have... He's moved on,
with another girl, and it's upsetting.
I wanted to be an emt, and I took the test
2 times, after going to school for it,
investing a ton of money in it, and I
failed, both times.
I have applied everywhere and no one will
hire me. I can't figure out why either.
I have no money.
My family is unsupportive-and completely
different than I am. They make fun of me,
and talk bad toward me, constantly. They
don't like anything i'm doing with my
life...
My uncle died yesterday. I don't know how
to feel about this.
Everything keeps piling up, and I cannot
do anything about it.
I've lost faith in people, by finding out
that they are unreliable. I have lost
trust in all but 3 people.
I don't have anyone I can really talk to.
Most people are just waiting for their
chance to talk.
I cry a lot these days.
I just feel alone.
I know that life is up and down, and that
we have to accept that.
But it's gotten to a point where i'm so
far in a hole that I can no longer see the
light...
I don't know what to do anymore.
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ashez
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Jul 2005 Posts: 1 Location: Texas
Re: I Feel Alone. Posted: 07-16-05 05:23am
It is at times like these, when we must
dig deep into the inner most part of our
resolve, and our will! We all have been
where you are now, I have been there many
times, and then some. I totally
understand how you feel, the desperation,
and lonliness. What you must do now, is
succeed, set aside all else, and clear a
path for yourself, and go for the most
incredible dream of your life! What has
happened in the past, will remain there,
it is up to you to carve your future. You
have it in you, you just don't know it
now, everything is blurred by the pain,
and depression. But remember my friend,
you are stronger than you think, and it is
never too late to turn it all around!
Good luck, and get going with life, start
to do things again. Take little steps at
first...There is a chinese saying that
goes..."fall 7 times, stand up 8."....
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Jemini
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2005 Posts: 58 Location: Australia
Posted: 07-20-05 06:05am
We all need to suffer now and again in
life for use to have out emotions in
check.
It's hard during the time, but always
remember that it is a phase and things can
only get better.
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Anamolii
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Aug 2006 Posts: 7 Location: Massachusetts
I Know Posted: 08-18-06 19:38pm
I'm so sorry you feel this way, or felt
this way. I know it's been a month. I
hope you are doing well now, and I just
wanted to say that when you are down like
this again, overwhelmed and with no clear
path, try to only come up with one small
step you can take to get yourself out of
it. It may just be getting out of bed, or
making a simple phone call, or just going
outside. The next small step is always in
front of us, and that's all you need to
do.
My mother suffered through depression all
of her life. She is epileptic as well.
She's been raped four different times, by
four different men, cheated on by her
husband numerous times and finally he left
her. (this is my father) she lost both of
her parents 6 months apart from each
other, and then had ect therapy, lost her
short-term memory and had to be told her
parents died, and grieve for them all over
again.
Please post again, if you need to talk.
Best wishes to you.
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alessa1235
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Aug 2007 Posts: 3 Location: usa
Please... Posted: 08-15-07 22:46pm
Be ok. I know it's ridiculus to say this
right now... I don't know you but if i
were you, (cause im just like you, i
depend on other's love) I would need a
hug, and even though I cannot hug you
recieve the deepest hug from the bottom of
my heart.
