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I Am In a Daownward Spral..... Posted: 07-16-05 22:53pm
:shock:
what do I do? I am a stay at home mom of
two little boys. One will be 3 in
spetember and the other will be one yearts
old in september also.. I also have a son
I had to give upo for adoption when I was
15.... He will be 10 in 5 days.... I am
horribly depressed. I live in a tiny one
bedroom apartment with my two little boys
and I feel liek I can't handle it...I was
recently kicked out of the navy for being
a single parent. No one wanted to help me
with my boys so I could stayt in.....
While I was in the service my best
freindds cousin held me down and made me
bleed in the wors tsort of way on
thanksgiving night....The neavy sort of
slid it under the carpet and ignored any
problem I tried to come to them with after
I was examined at medical and the secret
came out.... It was supposed ot be kept
confidential but it wword was spred all
over theship... Then when I becasme
pregnant they really said "f-- you" to
me... I did get help and was prescribed
celexa... My bf and I have been seperated
since april of 04 and I feel like I fall
apart more and more everyday...I ran out
of my celexa and I can't handle day to day
liufe any more.... I cry every day and
soemtimes I thin if I woul djust end it
all the boys woudld be better off without
me.... I take pills (vicodin, percocet)
on a daily basis as long wiht salcohol and
pot.... But I ahve been testing my
limiits with the pills...I see how many I
can take after the boys go to bed to see
if I still wakew up in the morining....I
leav emy dor unlocked so that way if the
baby starts crying to much and I ahven't
woke up then the neighvorr can come in if
need be and the boys will be okay.... I
want them to be beeter off..I love them
and I will never be able to care fo rthem
I don;t think...But I can't just gi ve
them away...My 2 year old..His dad is
married and has 4 other kids...His wife
doesn't even know that he (my son)
mexists... And I don't get nothing for
child support becasue I am too scared to
file.... How do I go on? Ho wdo I
function..I have no medical benifits any
more and can't afford to see a doctor or
to get new meds... I'm scard to call 911
after I tak emy pills becasue what if they
show up and i'm not dead..Then I have to
liove without my kids becasue they will
take them away fomr me... At least if I
am gone I can watch them and guide them
form the other side right?..I am scared to
talk to anybody I know becasue I don't
want them to think I am just being
"dramatic" and stop being frineds with
me.... Do I makle any sense?
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K arliss
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There Is Light Posted: 07-16-05 23:35pm
Lillyfrog if you do not stop taking the
drugs you will lose you kids anyhow.
Your post sounds , no looks like you are
under the influence. Ask for help from
your family. I do not undestand about a
cousin or was that put to read between the
lines. You can handle it and your kids
will not be better off without you. That
is the easy way out. Do you really know
your neighbor if you leave your door open.
You have put your kid in jeopardy by
telling everyone on this sight. Talk to
someone, anyone. Dont wake up and find
your kids hurt abused or even worse. I
know it is tough and try to put your
energy in see your children into
adulthood.
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lillyfrog8
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Well.... Posted: 07-16-05 23:37pm
What family?
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K arliss
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What Family Posted: 07-17-05 00:07am
Lillyfrog you do not have ave family you
can contact? If your neighbor is helping
then why not ask them. If they are
helping and I do not mean enabling you to
take pills then seek help. Since you
posted your delima on this sight what are
you hoping to get from this.
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Crystal1111
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I Agree Posted: 07-18-05 13:27pm
I agree with k arliss. I'm not sure what
you are searching for on this forum.
Everyone is here to support one another.
Your original post was very difficult to
understand and it seems like you may have
been under the influence when you wrote
it. Maybe coming to this site was a last
ditch effort reaching out for help. If
you have no family, please get help
somewhere.
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Hypochondriac1028
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Posted: 07-18-05 17:56pm
U be nice ;x
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lillyfrog8
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I'm Working On It Posted: 07-19-05 00:18am
I confronted one of the guys that I think
has been taking advantage of me... It's a
step in the right direction no? Today has
been easier... But going out into public
was hard...I put bandaids on my cuts...But
I think people can still see them and know
what they are... I am sober today
though...Woooo hooo...
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