Wow, my emotions have been really wierd
for the past few weeks. I get very, very
depressed, I sleep 4 hrs during the day
and another 7 at night. I feel
disconnected, I have withdrawn from my
friends.
But there are other times that I feel like
I can do anything, I laugh, run around the
house saying "weeeeeeeeeee!!" I am scaring
myself. What is wrong with me.? Also I
am not interested in sex, but do find
"self pleasure" quite often, or I have sex
with strangers, not my husband. I feel
like I am downward spiraling!!!!
Melody :?
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pierced
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jul 2005 Posts: 4 Location: ca.
Scared Posted: 07-21-05 20:29pm
You should be scared. Have you been
diagnosed and taking medication?
It's not fair to your husband to expose
him to disease by having sex with
strangers. My exhusband and my last few
boyfriends are bipolar and did this to me.
By the grace of god I don't have aids.
Prayerfully you have medical insurance and
can see a doctor and get help asap. I'm
sure this can not be any fun and is
definitely not normal.
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darkmelodies
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jul 2005 Posts: 3 Location: NC
Re: Scared Posted: 07-21-05 22:34pm
Just to put that part of it to rest, I
always used protection, as an ex-escort
and porn model, I know better than to have
sex without proper protection. I do not
have any std's I have been tested every 30
days for the past 3 years. I can't wait
to get to the pdoc on thursday..Still a
week away :cry:
pierced
wrote:
you should be scared. Have
you been diagnosed and taking
medication?
It's not fair to your husband to expose
him to disease by having sex with
strangers. My exhusband and my last few
boyfriends are bipolar and did this to me.
By the grace of god I don't have aids.
Prayerfully you have medical insurance and
can see a doctor and get help asap. I'm
sure this can not be any fun and is
definitely not
normal.
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pierced
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jul 2005 Posts: 4 Location: ca.
Scared Posted: 07-21-05 23:57pm
I feel for you and will be praying for
you. In the mean time even if you have
been withdrawing from your friends I know
I always feel better after talking or
getting together with a friend especially
if they make you laugh.
Sun shine and even just getting out doors
and walking is helpful and just talking
with god and asking him to help you. Hang
in their it's almost thursday.
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darkmelodies
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jul 2005 Posts: 3 Location: NC
Thanks Pierced!! Posted: 07-22-05 00:02am
I will try to get out. I have been awake
for 21 hrs now....Just can't sleep at all.
I usually nap during the day, but not
today :shock:
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Jemini
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2005 Posts: 58 Location: Australia
Posted: 07-25-05 04:45am
You have a husband and your sleeping with
strangers!? What are you doing with him
in the first place. I'm sorry to be
blunt. Its hard, but taking the step to
get help will be the best thing to do
before you hurt someone.
