I am a drug addict who suffers from a long history of depression. Lately I have been taking it upon myself to self-medicate. Consuming thousands of milligrams of morphine, amphetamines, hash, alcohol, not to mention smoking cigarettes like they are going out of style. Please do not judge I know the issues needed to be addressed. It is a recent relapse. I was planning on going back to a dual diagnosis treatment center and just a few minutes ago I found out I was pregnant. Im assuming it has been around 4 weeks now & my relapse has been around 6. I would be more than willing to take the appropriate measures to bring a healthy child into this world but I fear it may be too late for that.
I am extremely superstitious & asked god to tell me with the flip of a coin if this baby would be healthy or not. Heads-healthy.....Tails-not. 7 times in a row it landed on tails. I am crying & scared & I hate who I am. Does anyone have any feedback for me? Please?