Bulimia How Do You Tell Your Parents? Posted: 07-29-05 11:12am
Hi I sort of just accidentally found this
today, but whatever i'm glad I did.
I've had bulimia since last january so I
guess for about a year and some. It
started out exercising and good great
grand but now it's all I think about and
sometimes I even get a kick out of this
control you get. I like the feeling of a
flat empty stomache. Yesterday my parents
keep trying to talk to me and even
bombarded me with this huge envelope of
eating disorder information. My mom even
went to a support group thing the whole
afternoon yesterday. She found empty
laxative wrappers in my room supposedly
looking for something. I didn't care I
was so relieved she didnt notice my
garbage was filled with 2 different days
of puke.
They found puke in my garbage before but I
blamed it on drinking so much alcohol that
bbq.
Anyways, apparently my brother told my
best friend that 'our whole family knows,
it's obvious. But we're not a confronting
kind of family. Tell bianca to double
flush'
lol which is funny, cuz I like quadruple
flush that damn toilet.
Anyway, so I think they pretty much know
but I don't know how much they know.
They're leting on that they 'think' I take
laxatives because I eat barely so I get
constipated and frustrated. But I know
it's more.
I know it's bad I want to stop but I don't
want them to take away this frmo me cuz I
feel like it's all I have that's mine.
Something that I can actually control you
know?? But I can't ignore that it's
killing me
how far deep is everyone??
I have like the worst electrolyte balance
an irregular heartbeat
i don't even need to use my finger anymore
I can just bend over and burp it out
i passed out the other day at work in my
backroom for about 10 seconds
my throat is pretty much burned with an
extra hole
i'm psychologically paranoid and believe
that everyone is secretly bulimic in this
world
and i'm going to stop here for now because
I must go barf before I go to work. I
want to stop so my babies won't be more
messed up than they already might have to
be.
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Nikia
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Nov 2003 Posts: 74 Location: Wisconsin
If It Is Really That Bad, You Need to See a Doctor, Like Now Posted: 07-29-05 18:36pm
And eat some bananas and drink gatorade
and keep it down in the meantime.
Electrolyte imbalance and irregular heart
rate is not something to mess around with.
You could literally drop dead.
As far as parents, my dad knew that I am
anorexic from just talking to me over the
phone even though I hadn't said it
directly. He had last saw me when I
weighed 30 pounds more. My mother has
always been a perfectionist and said that
I was fat when I wore size 8 (when I was
heavier) so I am not even going to attempt
talking to her about it.
Strangely since I have come to terms with
my eating disorder, I have become overly
paranoid about people having eating
disorders. I've become suspicious about
anyone who is underweight, lost weight
that they didn't have to lose, or isn't
eating much. I think that it is a
combination of justifying our disorder and
being genuinely concerned.
Anyway, get help. When it gets to the
point that you could drop dead, like you
are, that is the only choice if you want
to live.
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damsel
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 May 2005 Posts: 69 Location: Melbourne, Australia
Posted: 07-29-05 21:47pm
Your family sounds so the same as mine!
They read my diary and found out
everything, but onl referred to it as
'body image issues' and they gave me all
this info on eating disorder and how bad
it is and what causes it. Like I dont
know, I may have an ed but it doesn't make
me ignorant you know? I know how bad it
is, I know its caused by warped body
image, lack of controll and a screwed
brain. My parents also have been going to
support groups and draging me alone, I
find its best to humour them and do as
they say. It makes home life so much
easier. I'm very angry at my parents for
suddenly expectine me to get better when
i've been this way for ages, I know I want
to be better but I need to take my own
time. You should probably see your doc
and get him/her to refer you to a shrink,
so that you have someone impartial to talk
to and create a plan of getting better
that works for you. I hope it all works
out, keep posting here and let us know!
Xoxo
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bianca
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Jul 2005 Posts: 7 Location: Toronto
Posted: 07-29-05 23:42pm
Yeah it's pretty bad to the point that I
thought I was having palpitations and
stomache ulcers. I involuntarily twitch
and shake in certain muscles, mostly my
legs and arms after I barf. That's why
as much as I want to hold on to barfing I
know I really shouldnt. And on top of
that my hair is falling out and hairties
give me bruises on my wrists.
So far the only people who know are my two
best friends, and my brother. One of my
best friends told him and my brother
really doesn't care that much I don't
think he even told my parents anything
that he knows.
And yeah I know exactly how you feel
damsel. It's sort of like all of a sudden
you want to be around me as if it's going
to make up for all that 'lost time'
before. My mom asked me if I want more
information on all these eating disorders
but honestly I think we all know our ed
very well.
I think I will tell them though tomorrow,
because at least theyre approaching me
more nicely. Before they were like
yelling at me as if how dare you do that
youre so selfish youre ruining the family
blahblah. My mom even said you better not
be like this when grandma comes. So
anyways, we'll see how that goes tomorrow.
Unless I chicken out >_<
and yah honestly I get sooo paranoid about
things like i'll look at girls and be like
I wonder if theyve been barfing.. Or like
how can that girl eat that and still be
thin?? She must be barfing. But for some
reason when I see other sites about like
bulimia and pro-anorexia it makes me feel
more upset that they talk about it like
it's some trendy fad or something. And I
kinda feel at the end of it that they're
taking away my bulimia by trying to use it
as some kind of tool or something. I dont
know.. Im sorry if I don't make any
sense
so i'm gonna talk to them tomorrow...
We'll see how it goes. And maybe support
group wont be so bad.. If its anything
like these forums itll make me feel better
(except for maybe the whole trying to make
me give up barfing part)
