My husband and I started trying a few months ago to get pregnant. Something both of us were looking forward to.

This past weekend I did a preg test. We didn't think we were pregnant, but I was about to start my period and wanted to know if it was safe for me to have a few drinks that night. Basically I was just thinking I was confirming that I wasn't preg. When it came up positive it wasn't expected. I didn't think it would happen that fast and to be honest I didn't think we were trying hard enough.

The reaction was good, but also surprise and shock a little.

That was 4 days ago.

Since then my reaction seems to be all over the place. Everything just seems jumbled up in my head and I can't make any sense of anything.

For the past couple of years I have been dealing with anxiety problems. Had been on zoloft, homeopathic remedies and done theropy, etc, I had gotten it undercontrol and for the past couple of months have only been taking the homeopathic remedy and doing great. This was great because the natural remedy is safe during pregnancy.

Well over the past few days the anxiety has gotton back on top of me. I don't even know why. Now i'm into that damn cycle of being anxious about being anxious, etc. I've also been feeling very down (something that often accompanies the anxiety). I'll be feeling this way, and then out of no where i'll just snap out of it for a little while, but it comes back.

My doc told me that ativan is safe during pregnancy and twice now I took one because I really started to lose a grip on the anxiety and didn't want to hit full blown panic attack. Even thought the docs say this is safe, I am still worried about the fact that I took it.

My husband feels that a part of this is that we are keeping it a secret now and that once we tell everyone this weekend I will start to feel better. I am hoping that will help.

Has anyone else gone threw this? Is this just the mood swings the books talk about? If so, how long can I expect this to go on?

Thanks,
laurie.