Hi, just wanted to start by saying that I
am 17 years old. I've tried to talk to
other people my age, but no one seems to
be going through this.
Well, last year, when I was 16, I finished
high school, and started working. I
ended up working at circuit city as a
salesman (computers, cameras). Well, I
noticed a few months after all that, I
began to get sick to my stomach almost
every day. I would find myself running
to the bathroom puking, because I thought
I couldn't breathe, or thought I had a
lump of food in my throat. I would
sometimes puke until it burned.
Well, shortly after that, I would always
have an intense fear. Like I had some
sort of physical problem, that couldn't be
diagnosed. I'd been to the hospital
three times, and each time they said I was
ok, that I had some major anxiety
problems. Well, for some reason, that
didn't settle it for me. The feelings
still went on, and I continued wondering
if I was dying, even though I know, that
at the age of 17, and a clean bill of
health from the er's, I shouldn't be
worrying.
Well, that went on and off.. Some days
i'd shrug it off, and just go about my
business hanging out with friends, the
girlfriend, going out to eat, etc. But,
other days, it's like I didn't want to
leave my house, in case I was in traffic
and an ambulance couldn't get to me.
Well, i'd been going through that for ~5
months, when I moved away to my mom's
house to attend college. Well, shortly
after that, I was dumped by my gf of 1½
years. I couldn't stop crying or
thinking about it. And for a couple days
there, I didn't think about dying. I was
so focused on her, I couldn't think about
anything else. Well, after a couple
days, I was just sitting there, and I was
just struck with a very terrifying fear of
death. If I went outside, I would freak
out, and just want to bash my head into
something from how it felt. It feels
like i'm just going insane and no one can
help me. I can't get my mind off of
death. And i'm sure it doesn't help that
I don't know anyone up here yet.
And, lately, i've had this bizarre thought
that i'm being 'cursed' by a witch or
something, no matter how stupid I know
that is. Since then, I haven't thought
much about death, but now i'm constantly
focused on 'curses' and such.
Does this sound like anxiety? My mom and
stepfather tend to agree that it was
anxiety before, and what happened with my
girlfriend just blew it up.
Does anxiety really make you focus on
death? It seems like I can't do anything
without an intense fear. I feel that if
I even wake up, i'm going to die, so I try
to sleep as much as possible.
Sometimes, I just get jumpy. Like,
someone will enter the room and I jump.
Or, i'll hear a noise and think something
is here, or when i'ma lone, i'm afraid
i'll die.
I don't know if it was the pressure of
being a salesman at such a young age
(although some people can handle that
stress well), and no longer being in
school, or what.
Does this sound like anxiety to you guys?
Or am I cursed, or what?
I'm sorry if I just sound like a whiny
teenager, but I just can't understand why
i'm like this. No one else my age seems
to act like this. I mean, i'm good at
hiding it, but lately, I just want to bash
my head into something. Like I can't
control it.
Also should add, that sometimes when i'm
out, it feels like i'm going to stop
breathing, and I have to think hard about
breathing or else i'll stop.
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Ambience24
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Aug 2005 Posts: 64
Yes .. Posted: 08-13-05 07:25am
You are right that you are suffering with
anxiety. Please go to the doctor and sort
it out before it's too late and you start
avoiding panic attacks( i.E not being able
to breath when you are out), sort this out
while your young.
I also used to work in sales, since I was
16 and have had anxiety since 16. Yes
some people don't deal well with stress
and I think that you are right that it's
not a good job to do ever in my oppinion
for someone who suffers with this.
Something psysical is more appropriate.
Remember, your health is more important
than your career.
Also rememeber, death is the easy part,
you don't feel anything when your dead so
why fear it. I think that you are fearing
fear itself, as you said. This is what
the doctors call panic disorder.
Practice, deep breathing and relaxtion
techniques. Eat well, sleep well and have
fun , distract your brain from what you
are going through, think positive. In
fact, don't think, just focus on the
moment, what you feel in the moment is
very important. Appreciate life around
you. You will begin to feel much happier
about things.
Let me know if you need any help hun, take
care x
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Ginak465
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Aug 2005 Posts: 2 Location: Uniontown Pa
Re: Anxiety? Posted: 08-14-05 21:19pm
Hey, I just sign up for this. Uhm im 17
too and I think about death 24/7. See I
dono what is wrong with my I always think
that I am having a heart attack or stroke.
I have chest pains arms pains neck pains
head pains. I go to the er and they say
im fine. I dono what the hell it is but I
kno im not fine. Like tonite I was doing
ok but latley ive been getting bad
headaches pains in my head and neck. From
what? I dont know. I htink it might be
a brain tumor. I got a eye dr appt 2moro.
Im just scared bcuz im a lil over weight
and my heart and caca scared me. I had an
ekg doen they sed it was fone but sumtimes
there wrong. At nie while im in bed my
heart will start to race and ill get so
scared.. What is that? Its been going on
forever. My family says im a
hypachondriac. :( I pray every nite the
lord wont let me die. I dono what it is
tho? But im 17 and I thnk of death all
the time..
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ShrekFan88
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Aug 2005 Posts: 5
Posted: 08-15-05 12:59pm
Thanks for the replies. It's helped me a
little bit. I've read through these
forums and alot of people suggest walking.
I guess because it releases endorphines
and they make you happy? Anyhow, i'm
going to start laying off the sodas and
start drinking water, as well as
exercising, and see how that works for
me.
But, I did have one more question.
Could a major reason why it got worse when
I moved away, be because I don't go out
and do anything anymore? I spend 22 hours
out of the day in this bedroom sitting at
the computer. I realize that's most
likely a retarded question, but it doesn't
hurt to ask.
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djajt
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Aug 2005 Posts: 32 Location: Indianapolis, IN
Posted: 08-18-05 06:57am
I would say you have the same thing as I
do, agoraphobia. I have a fear of going
out of the house or driving. With anxiety
it's hard but I know the only way to
conquer it is to force yourself to do
something. If you start to feel the
anxiety just try to focus on something
else and try the deep breathing excersize,
deep in through your nose, hold it for a
sec and then slowly exhale out of your
mouth. Repeat this a couple times it does
work.
Even if you just go for a short walk or go
to the mailbox everyday to start out, then
go further another day you will see that
you are making progress. I have had
anxiety and panic for 15 years. I know
exactly how you feel. It's very difficult
to will yourself into doing things you are
afraid of. One positive thing to keep in
mind is no one has ever died from a panic
or anxiety attack. Always remember that.
I also would strongly reccommend seeing a
psychiatrist and talkinga about your
thoughts and feelings with them. I am not
sure about other states but if you are
unemployed and cannot afford to pay for
the visits, they do have sliding fees in
most states. I live in indiana and my
visits only cost me 10.00 per session.
I hope some of this has helped you. I'm
always around here if you need to talk.
Take care,
amy
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PumpinIron80
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jun 2005 Posts: 23 Location: Knoxville, TN
My Anxiety Started Posted: 08-20-05 09:45am
My anxiety started about the age of 17,
and like you, I was focused on death, or
the fear of it I should say. I lost my
father when I was 15, so I know now, that
was a big part of it. My best advice to
you would be to see a therapist now.
Don't put it off, think you will get
better. I am 33 now, and have been
suffering half of my life. It took me 10
years or longer to know what was going on.
Don't lose 10 years of your life, see a
therapist and get your fears under
control. You can be helped, and now is
the best time before you get so many bad
habits that it will take years to fix.
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