I Dont Know If I Wanna Stop Posted: 08-13-05 16:10pm
Hey so I went all day yesterday with out
bienge eattin or purging it was really
hard and I didnt like it and at the end of
the day I wanted to do it so bad but I
didnt I don't know if I wanna acctually
get help ya know this has been in my life
for a year now and I just don't know if I
really am strong enough to go through each
day with out doin it though I mean my
older sister left like a month ago and
since then I have purged 1-2 times a day
and I really don't know I always feel like
I wanna tell my parents and get help but I
always chicken out and am just like o well
it wont kill me if I do it a lil longer
but it will I know now when I purge my
throat like burns a lil bit but then
purging makes everything in my life seem
ok like I don't have to worry or be sad
about things I don't know if I want help.
I need advice badly!!!
~de~
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Interia
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Aug 2005 Posts: 28 Location: USA
Posted: 08-13-05 16:34pm
Angel, saying another day of purging won't
kill you is an attitude you do not want.
People die from purging, so please please
try to stop. You might have a lot of
problems stopping, and you're gonna wanna
do it again, but giving in is the worst
thing you can do.
Telling your parents is a good thing to
do...They might be mad, but they will also
care about you and try to help you. I'm
glad to hear you're trying to quit.
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mshanson
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2004 Posts: 102 Location: California
Posted: 08-13-05 23:03pm
God, I know exactly how you feel.
I spent 10 years telling myself that I
would quit tomorrow, or in the new year,
or on my birthday, or whenever. I really
felt like I couldn't stop ~ I didn't even
care if I died because I couldn't imagine
life without my binging & purging.
But it got out of control ~ I became a
walking skeleton & I went into
treatment for a year. I wasted so much
time & money on this disease!
The good new is that today I am free of
bulimia, have been for over 2 1/2 years
now. I wouldn't do it again now for
anything. There is a way out~a long,
hard road, but worth it. First of all,
tell someone ~ get help. I had a doctor,
a dietician, and a support group to help
me.
Right now you probably can't see how this
is hurting you, but it is. Don't flush
your life down the toilet.
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lonely_angel
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Aug 2005 Posts: 128 Location: missouri
Posted: 08-13-05 23:23pm
I know it is hurting me cause ike 5-10
minutes after I purge I swear I can feel
my heart about to just beat out of my
chest and the back of my throat burns
after I purge it's just I think I am in
denial with myself. And I really dont
want to admit that I am like I get to the
point were I wanna go and tell my mom but
I know how she will react yeah. And she
procrastinates on everything and I don't
have insurance right now so knowing her
itll take like 2months before she would
acctually get me back on insurace I don't
wana tell her and then her not be able to
do something about it right away though
cause she would like get all paranoid like
after I ate and left the room she would
probably follow me and I just don't want
that though.
