This is my first time, ever, posting anything like this. I could really use some support/answers to some questions.
My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 20 years. I am 41 years old and have seen so many negative pregnancy tests in my lifetime that I'm scared to even be thinking that I might be pregnant. Here's what's been going on the past few weeks...
I was supposed to start my period last Wednesday (I'm very rarely late), had the cramps, the acidy feeling in my stomach - the works. It didn't show up. I didn't think anything of it. After several days, I got online and started to look up early symptons of pregnancy and wasn't surprised to read all the usual stuff. Breast tenderness, nausea - that kind of thing. I'd been battling some nausea off and on for about a week, maybe a little more, didn't really have any breast tenderness, though. I didn't let myself get even a pang of excitement until I read "had this awful metallic taste in my mouth." I've had that! It's not so strong anymore but, it was definitely there. As of this morning, I am officially 7 days late. This morning, I have cramps, my lower back is killing me and I've started spotting. Can anyone tell me if this is normal? The nausea has stopped but my lower back is very uncomfortable. I haven't taken a pregnancy test yet...I'm too scared. Having had over 36 negative pregnancy tests, I really don't know if I have it in me to see another one.
Any advice, reassurance...anything would be helpful.