
I felt
so sad as I read your letter. I too have
had anorexia for most of my life and have
lost good friends to this disease. It has
the highest death rate of any mental
illness.
But please don't blame yourself for your
friend's death. Once this disorder gets
its grip, no one on earth can loosen it.
I almost died twice despite all of the
love my family & friends offered me.
The only way out is when the victim
finally gets so sick of being sick that
they refuse to be a victim anymore.
That's what i'm doing right now, trying to
nourish my body and not overexercise. (we
always hear about the benefits of exercise
but rarely about the dangers of overdoing
it.)
i hope you are not too sad yourself, and
that you can take care of yourself while
you mourn your friend. Please don't take
the blame our on yourself in unhealthy
ways!