I Really Just Wanna Give Up On Life!!!!!!!! Posted: 08-28-05 21:57pm
Things are starten to get worse for me I
mean the only thing I ate today was some
fries but I purged that up like 10min
after I ate them I mean this is really
effecting my life I think it is kinda
causing me to have like mood swings or
something does that happen with people who
are bulimic? What is happening to me I
mean the only thing I have heard this past
year is how unhappy I am and how I use to
be nice and sweet and funny and now I am
just depressed all the time. I mean it
really makes me mad and I just go off I
don't know what I need right now. Ok
sorry I just had to vent for like a
minute........ But really does being
bulimic cause you to have like lil mood
swings cause yeah I go from happy then I
get really pissed off the next I don't
know what is wrong with me though but
lately I don't go any where like to stay
the night at a friends house or anything
cause I know if I leave my house I won't
be able to purge and ever since schoool
has started I have like ate one meal a day
and pourged that I know all people are
gonna tell me is go get help but I can't
get help I am scared of everything that
goes along with getting help like hurting
my family admitting to my self that I am
not natrually this skinny I mean I felt so
awesome today weighing myself and only
weighing 104 pounds and my grandma saying
wow you are so thin gosh why did this have
to happen to me..........
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bebe123
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2005 Posts: 9 Location: new york
Dont Give Up!!!!!!!! Posted: 08-30-05 18:32pm
Dont be scared for getting help and I can
help you because I was balimic too I stop
when I weigh only 85 pounds and yes being
balimic can make you very moody, I used to
get extremely mad for the littlest things
and I am still recovering, that was about
5 months ago now I wiegh 103 and I am a
better person, you just need to stop
purging and you'll start recovering like
me tell a friend and see if she can help
you and please dont give up on life, life
is too good for you to give it you and
remember god loves you and god can help to
when you pray, if you need help just leave
me a message ok
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BrokenButterfly
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Jun 2005 Posts: 28 Location: Ireland
Posted: 08-31-05 17:05pm
Oh hun, I totally know where your coming
from and i'm not going to go on to you
about getting help because although I
think its the way to go I know its your
choice and you'll decide when to go.
Mood swings do happen alot when you have
an eating disorder be it anorexia or
bulimia because you are causing so much
damage inside your body beings to get
affected and therefore it shows in your
behaviour. A few months ago I was really
bad and I started to see things that
weren't there, there is alot that can
happen to you.
Regarding mood swings, you see its like a
gragh they go up and down and the thing is
when they go up they go too high so its a
bit over the top happy and then you they
get low they get really low and you kinda
want to kill yourself, thats how low they
can get. These highs and lows can be
within 10 minutes of each other and
sometimes it can be scary. I remember a
few months ago I was seeing one of my
therapists and he made a joke and I swear
I could not stop laughing for about 15
minutes and it wasn't even funny, after
awhile he stopped laughing and asked me
was I ok. Then a few minutes later I was
so sad that I wanted to die so it is
common.
Hun if you have any questions or just want
to talk you can write to me anytime k.
I hope your well, take care!
Xxx
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bebe123
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Aug 2005 Posts: 9 Location: new york
Posted: 08-31-05 17:51pm
Wat do you mean you saw things that werent
there?
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irishamethyst
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jul 2005 Posts: 75 Location: Ireland
Posted: 09-01-05 03:46am
Mood swings do tend to go hand in hand
with all eating disorders. The moods
tend to go from one extreme to another.
Where I am currently at, I tend to feel so
much at peace within myself these days,
and it's a much nicer feeling than the
highs I used to get in the past, because
this is genuinely me 8) . In the past
when I used to get the highs, I used to
feel so much fear, because I knew the next
low wasn't too far off. My moods tended
to be a lot more in the lows though.
If you feel you're not ready for therapy,
there are helplines out there that you can
call as well. You don't have to say
anything you don't want to either. If it
wasn't for the support of the helplines,
that helped me between sessions, I would
be forty foot under by now.
Hang in there though. I believe that
everyone has it within them to recover.
I used to believe that I wanted it all
along, but now realised that I wished for
it, but didn't want to do the work to get
there.
Take care.
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lifeofme
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Sep 2005 Posts: 13
Posted: 09-01-05 03:55am
Ive been like that latley too. It just
seems like stuff gets worse in life.
But come on, nothing is worth your life.
It's the most precious thing you have.
What I tend to do is, just keep out and
away from the bad things in life that are
causing my grief. And focus on getting
the rest of my life on track. I got a new
job, in finally making a little money, I
got myself a new car... And im trying to
reenter the dating game.
Just take life one step at a time, and I
think youll do just fine. I really think
you can beat your disorder, you just got
to focus and not be afriad to ask for
professional help.
