Lol....I was going to post on here but I
just feel I need to help everyone on here
instead....
But anyway my problem :(
at work i'm fine, its all the activity and
being around people. But as soon as I
leave and i'm on my own I become, I dont
know, maybe depressed. Not sure what
depressed it supposed to feel like. I
feel sad, like I want to cry.
I hate time on my own, even though I have
some hobbies, I just hate it.
I think maybe its because I am not married
and want to have someone to love and love
me, and maybe children.
But then, I think thats not going to
happen, it cant.
I forgot to mention I was gay...Lol
so maybe a boyfriend? No, I cant because
people will then find out about me. I may
lose peoples respect. I dont know.
I think I would lose more than gain.
But then I suppose I am also living a lie
too.
I want to move into my own house next
year, it scares me. I need to live my
life, the way I want, even if it is
secretive maybe, but I cant do that while
not living on my own.
On my own I will be sad all the while
maybe :(
i want to stop feeling like this, I dont
know what to do though.
I just want to be happy like I am when I
am active, busy and with people, like at
work.
