I Needed to Vent For a Lil While Hhhmmm..... Posted: 09-18-05 19:33pm
I am so depressed right nowi mean I know
and can feel my body shutting down and I
wanna get help for my ed now cause I have
started taking diet pills and everytime I
take them I get a head ache like I only
took them if I didn't purge but lately I
have taken them even if I did purge and I
know it's not healthy but I don't know why
I do it but I am so stressed and school
and I feel like I have to do good and I
have to get good grades and not fail I
have never gotten good grades I mean and
my parents have always been on me about it
and now I just can't handle school and the
way my body is I mean gosh I am like 5'1
and weigh like 100 I use to weigh like 120
and it is weird cause when I weighed more
I was alot happier I mean my mom use to
look at me and say your not the dausghter
I had a year ago and stuff like that I
don't even know who I am anymorei am so
sad and depressed right now this doing it
ed is ruling my life and I can't sstop it
I am waiting for my parents to get me back
on insurance before I tell them and before
I get help but it is taking them forever.
Like I really don't wanna live with this
the rest of my life but I know it is gonna
be with me for like a long time to come
all I feel like I can do is sit here and
cry like it really feels like I have lost
controll of everything like all my mind is
is my ed nothing else I constantly think
about when I am gonna be able to purge
next and I don't wanna eat cause I can't
stop for like 3 hours I swear it feels
like that though like I eat one thing then
I like get addicted and have to eat more
and more I can't handle thi anymore like
this is really my breaking point or I am
just having a nervous break down I swear I
need help soon!!!!!!!But theres not much I
can do till my parents get on the
insurance
anyways love always d
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irishamethyst
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jul 2005 Posts: 75 Location: Ireland
Posted: 09-19-05 06:42am
Angel, please try not to take the diet
pills. They can be fatal. I know it's
not easy, but if you can try and write
your feelings and/or what's going on for
you it can be a start. Even writing here
is a great start. Hang in there!
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sephia3
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Sep 2005 Posts: 3
Posted: 09-25-05 17:20pm
Throw the diet pills away...They are
garbage and they dont work in the long run
anyway. I have been waiting for 3 months
for my insurance to kick in as well and I
have 1 week to go. My only suggestion
for you is to just chill out and focus on
what you will discuss with your physician.
And yes, you must be completely honest
with your dr or else you risk years of
pain to look forward to. I have dealt
with eds for 10+ years and lied to drs for
years and am now paying for it. My teeth
are all messed up, my skin is ruined, my
digestive system and esophagus are in
distress, not to mention my every thought
is based on anger and guilt for what I
have done to my body. Still for some
reason I cant stop hurting my body. I
pray that peoplel like you and I can
figure it all out and someday and feel
strong and in control
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 09-25-05 18:14pm
Hi there! I agree with sephia, throw
those pills away please, you do not need
them, they will ruin you! Have you
tried to go to mental health and explained
your problem honestly with them, please do
not get me wrong, I am not trying to say
that you are crazy, it is just that you
need a little help as most of us do in
their lifetime and do not be afraid as it
is confidential and they can at least lead
you in the right direction.
Have you tried to talk to your family
about this?
Try to remember that your body and mind
need food to function and survive, just
like your car needs fuel to function, you
do not want to end up in the hospital with
tubes going in you and out of you, or
killing yourself or having brittle bone
problems and stomach and esophogus and no
teeth the rest of your life, this is what
happens if you do not get it under
control now!
You caan come here aand vent here anytime
you want to as you are not alone in this
situation.
Also keep us informed of how you are doing
with this.
Good luck!
