Please Help Me Recover From My Anorexia Posted: 09-19-05 07:18am
I want it gone--really. I didn't have it
very long, but I lost almost 20 pounds and
my parents have certainly noticed. They
took me to the doctor, but i'm going to be
staying home with them. My bloodpressure
is super low. My mom doesn't want me to
see a nutritionist or a counseler
though--she says that she is a doctor,
too, and taht we don't need outside help.
She's stuffing me full of food though!
I'm 14, 5 foot 2 and they say I need to
weigh 100 pounds.... How many calories
should I be eating? This morning, my mom
forced me to drink almost three cups of
soymilk and a cup of cheerioes. Is that
too much? I want to recover, but I can't
stop worrying. Three cups of milk has to
be too much. I feel so stuffed now...
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irishamethyst
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jul 2005 Posts: 75 Location: Ireland
Posted: 09-19-05 10:06am
The food is only one aspect of what
recovery from an ed entails. The reason
that I developed ed was as a way of
dealing with both myself and my life -
none of which were pleasant. I honestly
do not think it is possible to recover
without the aid of a counsellor. You mom
may be a doctor, but it appears that she
is focusing on the physical and/or
behaviours. Many people still have a
lot of work to do on themselves, even
after they manage the behaviours. I have
been symptom free for a year not, but
still don't consider myself recovered.
Though I am nearing the end of my journey,
there are still some aspects of my life I
need to accept.
Recovery entails accepting both yourself
and others, becoming more assertive, and
honest about your values and beliefs. I
know I have not answered your question
about how much is too much etc. Firstly,
everyone's set point (both weight and
their metabollic rate) is very individual,
and would prefer not to focus in on the
food, lest it trigger someone else.
Best of luck with your recovery, and
recovery is fully possible - it takes a
lot of hard work and determination, but it
is out there.
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butterscotch678
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Sep 2005 Posts: 2
Posted: 09-19-05 13:09pm
I actually do want to see the counseler,
but don't want to argue with my mother.
It would hurt her badly, I think, to even
suggest that she can't "cure" me on her
own. I really think she's going about
this too fast, though. The milk and
cheerios made me still full at lunch, but
I ate this huge, 1 lb orange anyway. I
felt so gross, but ate really slowly and
got it down. It felt so weird, eating
when I wasn't even hungry! For the last
half a year, i'd been denying myself food
even when I was starving, and now to be
eating when i'm still half-full...!
One good thing though--i looked in the
mirror a few minutes ago, and couldn't see
my ribs at all. More surprisingly, this
didn't make me feel horrible, like i'd
expected. I actually thought, "hey, I
look okay. I look sturdier now--not all
like a skeleton."
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reinke
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Oct 2005 Posts: 27 Location: Ontario, Canada
That's Not a Lot Posted: 10-21-05 22:54pm
I know you may feel you ate so much but
really one orange for lunch is not a huge
amount. Are you sure you drank 3 cups of
milk?When I was first into anorexia, I
thought 500 calories a day was so much i'd
gain like a pound a day but I kept losing
and losing. Please get help before it
gets too bad. The more weight you lose
the worse it will get.
