I broke up with him after a chain of being
rud and abusing. I just took my decision
2 hours ago, when I knew that he cheated
on me and that he lied on me ... All I
know that I was deeply in love with him,
and I overcomed many things, that noone
can overcome them, he abused me to the
extreme. Did you read my story in this
forum? Try to have a look in the old
messages, I put a lot of my history with
my boyfriend in it.
I didn't tell him yet that I left him, we
left each other normally, I don't know how
to tell him? I'm totally sad now.. I'll
miss him a lot, but i'm hurt a lot also.
I'm so much hurt... He used to treat me
like an angel and after a blink of one eye
he's totally the opposite ( a dare devil )
hurting with knives and more. I'm
sensitive person and I cannot believe how
did I deal with all that and how did I
overcome all that? I'm a hero.
I'm not stable right now, so excuse me if
i'm saying weird things.
Pray for me to coop with my situation now,
and pray for me to forget this abusing
love which could kill me.
Macias
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angel6932
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2005 Posts: 788 Location: US
Prayers Are With You Posted: 09-20-05 15:15pm
I will pray for you swetty. I hope you
know you made the right choice. I know
how hard it can be but it is something
that we must do you know. Ill keep
praying for you. I am here if you need to
talk.
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Macias
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jan 2005 Posts: 52 Location: , Germany
Thank You So Much Angel6932 Posted: 09-21-05 17:24pm
Hi angel6932 /
thank you so much for your support
and for your prayers, I think I made the
good decision and I feel that i'm more
relax right now but still sad of course
because i'm missing him :( I hope I can be
happy soon :)
best wishes for you and thanks.
Macias
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shanti1
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Dec 2004 Posts: 87
It Is Wicked Hard, But You Have to Be Strong For Yourself Posted: 09-22-05 05:05am
I can empahtize with you so much, these
forums have been a saving grace during the
time of me dating a guy who treated me
great in the beginning, and somewhere at
the end of our relationship, I felt he had
two distinct personalities, and one was a
nice guy and the other a monster,
manipulative, ugh...
Anyways, it was super hard to deal with it
all, all these emotions,
i am still dealing with it,
i always pray for my safety now.
Lots of luck, be proud of yourself as you
are respecting yourself even though your
heart may feel like it is going to break
in a million pieces,
take it easy on yourself as you heal
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Macias
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 Jan 2005 Posts: 52 Location: , Germany
I Couldn't Handle Posted: 09-23-05 15:18pm
Unfortunately, I couldn't handle the
situation, I knew that he's in a very bad
mood after I called him, and he was
shocked :( he's my love I couldn't accept
to c him upset :( so I went to him, trying
to have a conversation and to fix
everything, I found him so tired :( I felt
so much pity, but in the same time he
ofcourse was very rude with me, I was
dying, so tired can't stand on my legs
feeling so sad and depressed, I asked him
to make me happy, coz he's the only one
who can make it. But noway he can't help
himself so he either can't help anyone.
I hope for him a very good health, knowing
himself and what he wanna do in his life.
Good luck for him. I'm in love with him,
and I don't know what to do now, I guess I
have to give some space for both of us,
coz I thought I made a load on him while
he's in depression, so i'll hide praying
for a good future.
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SkyWriter
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Sep 2005 Posts: 6
Re: I Couldn't Handle Posted: 09-25-05 17:53pm
Sounds like you did the very right thing.
Think of yourself first; we bipolar people
have to deal with more than ourselves. Is
no excuse.
