I Ended a Very Unhealthy Relationship, I Pray For My Safety Posted: 09-20-05 18:49pm
I ask for prayers
my ex, out of the blue has called again,
left messages
left emails, even though I blocked his
email address, I guess he got a new email
address just for this occassion
he requested something he gave me, to give
it back, which I did, through another
person, I know in my gut, that it was so
minor of a thing
( I mean what would he do if I was dead,
he could not get the item back)
anyways, I know it was an excuse to see
me, or somehow have a connection.
Ugh, I do not deserve this, all I ask for
is for him to have a great life and
forever leave me alone
now I really hate him
i am scared
too scared to get a restraining order
god, I just pray he will let me be , and
I will forever be safe and fine
if I could rewind time, I would have never
dated him
he seemed so nice , not a fantasy world,
not to good to be true stuff
just a regular guy, he knows everything
about me, I had no secrets,
how can I ever trust again?
I am never going to date again, my life
sucks from the biggest mistake I have ever
made... :cry:
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scarlett5678
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Sep 2005 Posts: 31 Location: Pa
Your a Strong Person. Posted: 09-21-05 11:24am
Wow your so strong. To be able to say "i
never want him in my life agian", and to
not answer him when he tries to talk to
you so see him when he tries to see u, it
must be hard but it seems like your doing
a great job. I admire your strength, it's
something I wish I had more of. Keep up
the good work, your in my prayers.
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scarlett5678
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Sep 2005 Posts: 31 Location: Pa
Your a Strong Person. Posted: 09-21-05 11:35am
Wow your so strong. To be able to say "i
never want him in my life agian", and to
not answer him when he tries to talk to
you so see him when he tries to see u, it
must be hard but it seems like your doing
a great job. I admire your strength, it's
something I wish I had more of. Keep up
the good work, your in my prayers.
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shanti1
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Dec 2004 Posts: 87
Thank You!!!!!!!!! Posted: 09-22-05 12:33pm
Thank you for your sweet letter, and that
I am in your prayers, thoughts.
It means the world to me, really thank
you!!!
Yes, you are right, it is so incredibly
hard, yet I am treating it like a mourning
process, as if he died
there is anger
there is rationalization, denial, back to
anger, I am still healing
do not know how long, and if I can ever
truly get over it all
yet, my saftey, well being, my mind, my
soul has to be number one.
Looking back, my self esteem was chipped
away little by litte
if it all happened at once, I would have
been like, see you!
I miss making love to him, that was good,
but that is just crazy, because he is
"crazy" he has two personalities
and so I can say I don't know him at
all.
These forums have helped tremedoulsy, I am
full of gratitude for you, everyone writng
with their comments, advice
have a great day, be kind to yourself,
talk to your "heart" for guidance on what
to do.
