Someone....tell Me It'll Be Ok Posted: 09-24-05 14:26pm
Tell me it'll be ok. Tell me that I can
do this.
You see I was living with my daughters dad
at his apartment and it got brought up
that I should go stay with my mom for a
week or two. I never wanted to leave.
But I knew that if we had a chance at
fixing things for real this time and
making it work that I needed to grant his
wish this time. So here I am, at my ma's
house... Its been 5 days. The longest
most hard days ever. His reasoning behind
it was that he just needs time to figure
things out, figure out how he's gonna take
care of our daughter and me. I don't for
one minute want him to think he has to
support the whole family...I would never
feel comfortable with that. He is the
type of person that likes to think about
things and find the solution on his own.
He said he loves me and this isnt a
permanent thing that he just needs his
space right now. Maybe its cause he just
needs time to let it set in... You know
the whole life change. Here's the
problem. We've had our fair share of ups
and downs and my biggest fear right now is
that he's not gonna want us back!!! I
cant do this with out him...He's my rock
and I want things work out this time I
just need to know its gonna be ok and
he'll want us to come back. Am I
overthinking it? I dont know what to do
to make the days go by faster. He's every
thought in my head and its so tough for me
to give him this time but I know that if I
dont then this could really be the end for
him and i. I just need strength to make
it through this time.
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angel6932
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2005 Posts: 788 Location: US
I Am Here For You Posted: 09-24-05 14:55pm
Hunny you can do this trust me. I can
tell you from experience. I love my
husband so much but I have had to leave a
couple of times. Sometimes that is what
you need to make things better and your
love stronger. I know how you feel cause
there is no way that I want to ever live
without him and now more than ever. Just
give a couple of days to get things sorted
out and then you will see it will be much
better. Please dont be so hard on your
self..
I am here to talk if you need me
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fatfamily02
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jul 2005 Posts: 3050 Location: Georgia, USA
Posted: 09-24-05 15:10pm
I feel this is something god has allowed
to happen for the betterment of your
relationship. This has happened to me
several times and he has said "i am doing
this thing" and every time our
relationship has just gotten better. I
know its hard but it will be okay. Just
keep your mind set on him, for when he is
in doubt you have to be the pillar. And
when your in doubt he has to be the
pillar. Thats just how true love is.
Everything will be okay I promise.
With love
joanna
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kismit
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Aug 2005 Posts: 114 Location: tx
Posted: 09-24-05 15:17pm
Thanks. This is so hard. Especially now.
I just miss every little thing about him
and I want us to figure things out
together. I just want my love for him to
be strong enough for him. I want to bad
for things to be okay for us all.
I want with every fiber in my body for
things to work out... But at the same
time I cannot let it drain all my
strength...I need it for her. Everytime I
feel her kick I think of him and wish he
could feel what I feel, you know. I just
want us to get through the past and live
for now and live for today. I want him to
want me back. I cant picture my life w/o
him but at the same time I wanna believe
he feels the same way... But I cant say
that. I just wanna know what he's
thinking and how he really feels. We made
her together and I wanna figure things out
together.
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angel6932
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2005 Posts: 788 Location: US
Baby Needs You Posted: 09-24-05 15:48pm
Trust me I know. Listen sweety. Like I
said I have been there. On several
occations. I would call and call and he
wouldnt answer I finally realized if its
ment to be then it will be. You know what
he came back or vise versa. I know how
you feel and I promise god is watching
over you and you will get through this
tough time. Sorry I was pausing cause I
had a contraction. Boy oh boy do these
things hurt.
As I was saying. I am here for you and I
promise you that you will get through
this. I know you love him but you need to
think of you daughter as I had to do.
They depend on us to be the strong ones
you know and I guess there right we sorta
do. I am here for you
so what are you going to name your little
girl? How far along are you. I think me
and you have talked before but I am not
sure. Being pregnant makes you forget..
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kismit
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Aug 2005 Posts: 114 Location: tx
Posted: 09-24-05 17:52pm
I cant say thank you enough. I mean I can
wish and pray every nite but what is meant
to be will be. Its just a tough road till
then. I dont know what to say to him to
encourage him that we're strong enough to
make it. I love him with all of my
soul.
We like the name gianna asher....
Im in my 25th week... She's kickin and
ounchin up a storm, actually she's rally
been moving so much more since I left. I
tell him its because she doesn't hear her
daddys voice around her. Not sure how
true that is but its what gets me through
the day, you know.
Pray for me...Pray my love is strong
enough to save us.
Thanks a ton.
