Loneliness

Me!!! I need out of it but I cant no matter how hard I try :cry:

Right now I am very depressed. I found the love of my life and I found out I was going to be the mother of his first born child. About 3 weeks ago I had a misscarriage. Woo-woo-woo I have been so upset. At times I feel like im over it and im finished cryin' it out but I always find myself cryiing whenever I think hard about it. I need to find a way out of mine before I go crazy. :?

Suffering the loss of a child is just about the worst grief.............Im sorry, it must be like living a nightmare, so, so unbearable.

You have to let your feelings out, no matter how long it takes. It is far too personal to keep locked up................Cry it out, its not fair, and the world should know its not fair, life is precious, the gift of life, the fulfillment of motherhood, and fatherhood.

You must feel so cheated, but never ever give in to feelings of guilt, you must know not to allow this.

Hope you know we care honey, cos we do.

We cant change it, but we care.

I really wanna be normal like I use to but the sadness is killing me =-(

I hear you guys...And I know how it must feel....
I am only in highschool and I do not know if I am going insane.. Or if I am just lonely... I have the best b/f in the world..So kind, so intellegent..But he lives in a diff state. I feel like everyday i'm being betrayed by someone I once thought I knew..And it all is so dumb...
Everyday I feel like soemone is leaving me...
I cry..So much....But only inside.... I am one who draws in negative energy but does not let it out..I can walk into a room and their pain is soaked into me..But I can still carry a smile...A mask hiding what longs to be set free..
Am I going crazy.... Does anyone else feel this " depressed" "deprived of a normal life"

Sounds like you are a very sensitive person, that isnt a criticism.

And you certainly need the reassurance of someone there all the time, otherwise you deny your needs, so its not being faithful to ones self really isnt it....................

Sounds quite normal to me, most peoples feelings are, what is so different really, is how people deal with them. Or not deal with them.

And the things they do instead.

See you around honey...................

I have always been lonely but I thought it was just becuase I didnt listen to the right music or wear the right clothes and I didnt fit in but now im popular I still feel alone except with one friend. Now I dont try to fit in anymore its not worth the effort. I guess thats kind of irrelevant but I see a lot of people who are always saying how everything would be different if they fitted in- oh yeah and go watch the film thumbsucker when it comes out oct sometime

Thats the problem though..It " looks " normal...
But theres were the difference between the observer and the observed comes in...
As u said we all deal with things differently...
And I for one..Am deffinitly out of place in my entire family...

Fitting in really has never been my thing..Yeah i've been picked on a lot in my life and even now it feels as though im a lower rate to the rest...But oh well...One day when I make it and they fall behind i'll chose to just keep to myself, and laugh on the inside.

I fit in...With my own kind...Theres not many of us...But I always know theres at least one of me...So if thats what my kind is considered then i'm a team of 1. Does that sound odd to anybody...Im confused now. I do that a lot.

One reason why I might be depressed that i'm absolutely positive it may be a reason...Is because I listen to almost any type of music... Not much rap, not much country, not much metal...But i'd still listen to them with no complaint if I had to I guess...I'd perfer not to listen to a lot in a row..But it'll be ok... I listen to various things; techno, j-pop, rock, hip-hop, classical.....And christian.
Thats where the problem comes in....My b/f...He has a problem with christian music...It drives him insane..
And my brother claims we only listened to christian music cuz my dad made us when we were younger..Thats b.S. Cuz I know my bro used to love c music.
So i'm the lone stranger of the bunch..And it just ticks me off and hurts deeply that my bro would say that...And though I know why my b/f doesn't like it...I wish he didn't openly stated as he did...I wanted him to tell me..But he just said it the wrong way...
I never said I had a problem witht he music he listened to..If I had to listen to it all day oh well big deal..Music is self expression..I can't criticize anyone on that....*sigh*

My son is a loner like this..............Nobody gets near him...........Plenty of girls on the scene but nobody gets really near..................

He darent let them, but labels himself as a loner.............

A bit on the wild side, with a nick name like crazy dave...............

He isnt ready is my opinion.................But I do worry, is he hiding hurts and positioning himself in a loner position.............

His father was like that, but his father was a control freak, demanded a position of control in a relationship, and oh boy the ways he did it, but dont see my son like this, cos he isnt like this.

I am talking about my son, not to give you someone elses example, might not be yours to associate with his ways, and whys.

But hopefully it will give you room to think, a bit deeper, about why you are as you are, yourself...................

I am a bit of a loner by choice, cos I dont fit in with most women around me want to do, and be.

But, I do miss relationship with someone special.

For now I will settle for male friends and companions.

Dont want to be that much of a loner.

Hope you dont mind me sharing like this, sure you will tell me if you do mind.

Speak to you again,

take care

lynda

I have a way of that I can make friends that r guys faster then I can make friends that r girlz....I'm weird like that..

Nah I love my b/f..And i'd never turn my back on him..Because he'z more then my love..Hes my best friend...

My best friend sense 1st grade was a guy..And we still talk..But I can tell we r spreading farther apart.. I found I can trust my b/f more...And he knows me more then my 1st grade friend ever could...Because he listens..

I jsut wish that he wouldn't have reacted the way he did...
I forgive him but i'll never forget it..

I don' know if i'd actually dare to call myself a loner..Maybe..But..No..No not me...Am i..*thinks to self*..*sigh* I don't know anymore...I just don't know who I am..

Circumstances cause a lone state, can be got out of, moved from. But if anything is blocking it, should be seen to, lots of experience in that comment.

Your reference to yourb/f being unfaithful, was what I picked up on shatteredcrow.

Hey, he's good....................But is he everything you want, if he isnt are you biding your time, or shying out of venturing.

You will know yourself.

Thanks for sharing, and thankyour for letting me share.

Would like to know out of interest, what your fave music is!

See ya later

Hi crusheddiamonds cant pm u back because it wont let me which post were u refering to?