I'm a guy, and i've always been sensitive.
I fell in love and about 2 years ago I
lied about something and then confessed,
and was left worrying for about a month if
she would forgive me. Before she could I
had a panic attack which at the time I had
no idea what it was, and it made me feel
out of control, so I kind of initiated us
taking a break thinking that it would
solve my problem. Not to mention I had a
panic attack after smoking weed so I didnt
really know if I had damaged my brain or
what. Scared to tell anyone in fear that
I had a mental illness, I kept everything
to myself and just continued to worry and
worry. Finally after I didnt sleep for
about a week I decided to go to the doc.
They put me on meds but I still hadnt
accepted it. I didnt tell anyone...Take
my pills right..Basically I took them to
be able to sleep..Cuz not sleeping scared
the crap out of me. So I remember
feeling happy a little bit while taking
the meds...But I never went back to the
doctor..Because I hated being there...Now
I just need some advice. I feel
completely not like myself anymore, my
brain feels physically weird..I cant think
clearly at all...My grades in college are
dropping..I feel apathetic because all
this time I thought one little magic thing
would heal me...So I put off all my
emotions and everything until this
happened. Now I feel like i've been
analyzing every little thing, every
symptom, andi ts drove me deep into
depression. I just wonder if I should
take a sememster off of school to go stay
with my sister..Who is wiling to help
me...Or should I just get on meds and this
will help me through school....But I hate
taking meds and I only want to take them
if I have to ...And will be able to get
off of them...I'm soooo confused..Please
help me..Ive told some people but it hasnt
really helped cuz I physicalyl feel like
restricted!!!! I'm scared..Please help
