Joined: 05 Oct 2005 Posts: 2 Location: sydney australia
Cutting Posted: 10-05-05 09:47am
Hey my name is emma I cut myslef and I
find I feel better after does anyone else
get this feeling?
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CutterSarah13
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Oct 2005 Posts: 5 Location: Surrey
Re: Cutting Posted: 10-11-05 09:18am
sadems
wrote:
hey my name is emma I cut
myslef and I find I feel better after does
anyone else get this
feeling?
yes I feel like im alive aswell, and after
ive done it, I feel like I need too
continue it :(
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scarlett5678
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 09 Sep 2005 Posts: 31 Location: Pa
Cutting :( Posted: 11-21-05 14:40pm
I cut too, im 18 and I started about two
years ago when I started getting panic
attacks and became very depressed. I
would cut because at the time I was
feeling such an intense pain inside my
body and cutting kind of reversed that
pain. I dunno it's hard to explain but
latley my cutting got so bad I was put
into a hospital. I learned some things
there that help me sometimes and I hope it
can b helpful to other people who have
this problem.
When u feel like cutting.............
Hold ice cubes in ur hands- the coldness
still causes that pain u may need but it
isnt as serious as cutting and wont leave
scars.
Also sometimes I wear a rubberband around
my wrist and when I feel like cutting I
snap it and that does the same thing as
the ice cube, causes pain but no damage.
This one dosent work for me when im really
really in the mood to cut but sometimes if
u draw on the place where u want to cut
with a red pen it looks like u cut and
that helps some people.
I hope that helps people but the main
thing is to just get help, I know for me I
got help because I wasne just hurting
myself I was hurting and scaring the
people around me who love and care about
me, also the only way u will ever stop
cutting is if u really want to, I need to
have movitation or I wont stop, u just
need to want to get better. Good luck to
all of u I know how hard this is.
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LITTLE LISA
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Nov 2005 Posts: 30 Location: CROYDON, SURREY, UK
Posted: 11-22-05 14:25pm
Hi im lisa I too did self-harm I first did
it at 14 and I am now 27 the last time I
did it I was 25 and going through a
breakdown. I ended up in a mental
hospital. In there I saw various self
harmers which were much much worse then me
one lady even set herself on fire :shock:
, another u couldnt see her through
scars!!.
Since seeing from first hand what self
harm can lead too it has stopped me from
doing it now
my left arm is covered in scars which I
get very embaressed about in the
summer...
Not only that its a constant reminder of
my "breakdown" :(
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.Heather.
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2006 Posts: 15
Posted: 06-14-06 02:11am
Finally somewhere I can talk!!! Yes I
know how you feel ive been cutting for
three years now...It helps so much for the
pain ya know. They sent me to a
rehab...Told me it would help...Those
incredibly therapists are the crazy ones
if you ask me..Hehe but any way I think it
is only human to want to feel physical
pain when you feel pain on the inside I
just thought id tell you your not
alone.....
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Zero_chance
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jun 2006 Posts: 5 Location: northwest US
Posted: 06-14-06 02:39am
Try snapping a rubber band on your
wrist.
It gives a similar sensation without
causing harm.
Cutting grows into an addiction and it can
get out of your own control very fast.
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alix9
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Jun 2006 Posts: 3
Posted: 06-29-06 02:10am
Speaking from experience...
Try to overcome it as soon as
possible...Before it grabs hold of you
anymore...
There are so many options out there...For
example talk therapy. That could include
talking to a counsler, an adult, a pastor,
etc.
For temporary solutions, try squeezing ice
or biting into ginger (yes, it sounds odd,
but it takes your mind off of the
emotional pain at the time, but it isn't
self-mutilation). Also, when you start
feeling like you want to cut, try calling
up a good friend or a cutting hotline. (
http://www.
Eliteskills.Com/teen_cutting/hotlines.Php<
/a> )
This sort of story reminds me of my ex
girlfriend. During this relationship I
noticed she was a cutter. I ignored it
and didn't think much of it and I don't
know if that was the right thing to do.
She even once wanted me to try and cut
myself once but I declined. I am not the
one who get depressed at all, nor ever
feel a urge to cut myself. Though I was
pretty worried about what she was doing to
herself could be self destructive. She
pretty much told me she didn't cut her
self anymore and I once again ignored
it.
One day she told me she was going to spend
2 weeks at her uncles house. After she
spent the 2 weeks up there she came back.
I had been wanting to break up with her
for a while now and thought I would tell
her when she got back (this wasn't out of
no where I have talked to her about
breaking up earlier). Anyway when she got
back I went to her house basically to give
her the bad news ;(. Before I told her
she wanted to show me how much she loved
me.. Now this is the part that scared me.
She lifted up her shirt and I was
wondering what she was doing, I was
confused thinking she wanted to have sex
or something. She turned around, her back
completly red and slashed, I swear there
was atleast 100 cut marks on her back.
Her shirt was bloodstained and scabs
everywhere. It was pretty sickening I got
pretty freaked out.
After trying to keep a cool head on what
she was doing to herself I made bad timing
of telling her I wanted to break up. She
then started to tell me thing like "please
don't leave me" "i need you" "i'll do
anything" which kind of made me feel like
a bad guy. I then knew right there she
needed some help outside of me and her
parents. It took me 5 hours atleast for
her to get me to break up with her and she
cried alot, not that it's not normal to
cry in a relationship at all. The most
reason I wanted to break up with her was
because she had so many problems with her
like and I felt like I contributed to it,
and could not let myself feel guilty she
was doing things like cutting because I
was no satisfying her in this
relationship.
I had a crowded mind for the next few days
not been talking to her, thinking what I
should do. I was very close to calling
her parents to talk to them about what she
was doing :/. A few days later I got a
called from some weird unknown phone
number. It was her, she informed me her
parents placed her in a mental hospital
because they saw her back. Not to be mean
or anything I was glad she got caught, I
didn't want her condition to go any
further than that. So about a month later
she comes back and instant messages me on
aol instant messanger. We talk and it's
about whats up how you doing sort of
thing, being real friendly. I thought she
was doing great and was happy she was
happy for once.
Ok now this is the part I do not get. One
night I was up playing some online games
at 4:45am I hear a loud thump on my window
I instantly get out of my room thinking
someone was throwing rocks or something.
I get into my otheroom that shows the
street. I see her egging my house and
then she ran into some van, I was
completly mind boggled of why she was
doing this. The next day she thinks I am
completly stupid and have no idea who this
was. She imed me on aim and acted
friendly again, to be honest I was not
100% sure that was her egging my house, it
was dark but the body shape and hair
looked exactly like her. I basically talk
friendly to her since I was not sure she
egged my house or not and I started to get
convinced it wasn't her I didn't even
mention it to her.
The next day my friend who is friends with
my ex girlfriends best friend were talking
on the phone, he said that he mentioned to
her friend that my house got egged, and
her friend repllied "i know". Ok thats
100% obvious now she egged my house. Her
best friend lives 40 minutes from my house
and I have no contact with the guy he
would have no idea if my house got egged
unless she told him about it. I then im
her "who the hell would drive you at 4:45
am?" she signs off right there. For the
next few days she would sign on instantly
see my name and sign off. I didn't even
want to talk to her I never tried to im
her after I asked her who would drive her
that late.
She eggs my house again at 9:45pm, at that
point im furious, I am wondering what has
changed in her personality since she went
to that mental hospital. I wonder if she
still has some condition shes not over
yet. Or maybe days shes not talking her
pills (which I am sure shes prescribed to
take some after she got back) I am just
completly confused of whats going on here
and it angers me off everytime I have to
think about it. Summer vacation for me is
about to be over soon and I will be going
back to school I just hope I don't have to
see her again. If anyone has any ideas if
this is a disorder or something please
tell me. Oh by the way she is 15 I am
16.
Hi i'm megan, and I self-harm myself. I
use to cut actually, for about..5 years
now, sometimes I still do, I find myself
upset or frustraited and I cut. I use to
cut my arms, thats how it all started, I
was mad and upset when I was 16, and I
took a dull pocket knife and cut the tops
of my arm, never bled but the burning pain
sensation kind of made me feel better, I
realized I did this alot after my
grandfather passed away but alot more when
things just never went right. I stopped
for a bit after hurting my arms, then I
got into this huge fight with my parents
one day and I was soo mad, I took a
disposible razor, and pryed the razor out
of it, thats when I started to cut my
wrists. Not in a way to litterly make
myself bleed to death but just to bleed
what I felt was my pain away. With every
swipe and the blood there it made me feel
better, oddly enought. Sometimes I would
be so upset the cuts would be deep. My
arm is full of scars and I look at it
everyday as a reminder of what I did to
myself, but that doesnt make me stop, I
started cutting my hips, just because it
was in an area where noone would see it,
and my wrists were to visible in the
summer. I use to tell my friends as some
sort of cry for help, but they would be
like ya I use to then it seemed like
everyone did, I was cutting for about 3
years before I told anyone! One of my
friends did it cause the movie thirteen
"inspired" her. I freaked on her and said
people with real problems do it, not
because of a movie. Its not thing you do
around sayin oh look someone give me
attention I cut myself. Because she would
go around and like point it out that she
did. It would make me mad because I never
told anyone. It was something I had to
deal with. I sought help. Searched on
the internet and such. Was told that you
need to tell people. I couldnt tell my
parents I only say I need to see a shrink
I was depressed. Which was true I am
depressed, I suffer from it. But they
didnt believe me. Then my boyfriend at
the time found out I did it. He was an
ass about it. Yelled at me and called me
retarted, instead of maybe tryin to find
out why. Then I stopped for the longest
time. Like 6 months. I was proud and got
into this huge fight with my boyfriend and
my parents and my best friend, and did it
again. I have scars on my hip. Then I
stopped again. Broke up with my
boyfriend, just stopped listen to my
parents all together, and fixed things.
And that was in sept. So since then..Ive
cut myself twice. But I find now im
pinching myself. Cause bruises on my
arms. Under my arms, which I guess isnt
as bad at cutting. For some reason when I
pinch myself I feel better, when a bruise
forms to. I guess its something im stuck
with. Always self harming. Could be
caused by my depression, I never really
got that checked out. But I find talking
about it helps me a bit. Meh. Im on
this life story kick tonite!
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hawkeye69
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 29 Location: Wisconsin
Posted: 04-11-07 14:13pm
I'm an older cutter. I started in my 30's.
I was dealing with childhood sexual abuse
and couldn't deal with all the memories
and the pain. Cutting is hard to explain
to someone who doesn't do it. Make sure
you are getting good therapy. I quit
cutting a couple years ago. On to other
things I guess.
Hope you get this under control. The scars
it leaves behind are terrible.
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Fairy*Godmother
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Joined: 11 Oct 2003 Posts: 1387 Location: , Georgia USA
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Hi Posted: 04-11-07 14:29pm
Guess that makes me the oldest one to
reply..............as for cutting, the
pain you feel and the cutting makes your
pain seem real? The pain I experienced
would take stabs..........not several
cuts. Suicide was optional, but I never
could quiet get the balls to do it. I did
see several therapist, as you say...talk
is cheap. It took several rounds of
different meds to take me out of
depression land. Not sayin there are a few
days I still feel the dark side....but for
the most, I lie each day now as if it were
my last. I figured out on my own, there
are people worse off than me and instead
of wallowing in self pitty and wanting to
die, I could turn that energy around and
try to help others. I started by
volunteering at hte local animal shelter.
The animals made me feel needed and the
time I spent with them, I was not thinking
about what a crappy world I lived in. No
one understood me, but then again, the
animals didn't have too, and they don't
judge you. Another place was the senior
center for elderly. I would go there and
ask if there was anyone who was lonesome
or had no family or needed something done.
I found I didn't have so much time on my
hands to think about how incredibly bad
things seemed to be for me. Please
reconsider cutting yourself, leaving scars
for future explaining. It really is not
making you feel better. There are lots of
people and animals that could use a friend
like you..............been there, done
that!
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Joynznz
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 05 Aug 2007 Posts: 2 Location: nz
Re: Cutting Posted: 08-05-07 21:43pm
sadems
wrote:
Hey my name is emma I cut
myslef and I find I feel better after does
anyone else get this
feeling?
I too cut myself im 22
years old and doing it for 8 years
