I'm a 31 yr old sahm to 5 kids. I
shouldn't have any reason to be depressed.
I love our home, my neighborhood, my
church, and even my hubby of 10
years...But since giving birth to our
youngest (born march 13, 2005) my doctor
says I have post-partum depression. I
think it's more than that...I've had these
feelings for years. I have a very low
self esteem/self image, i'm constantly
putting myself down, i'm very
self-disciplining, and it's been brought
to my attention that I also have an eating
disorder. Can my life get any more
complicated?? To top it all off, I had
my tubes tied after my son was born...That
in itself is depressing to me. I didn't
think it would be....But now I feel so
useless....Like i'm no longer "whole"...I
don't know.
I have been walking almost daily (when
it's not too cold) and sometimes find
myself secretly hoping that someone
"accidentally" swerves and hits me....Why
do I feel this way? I'm on meds...But
recently was switched from prozac
(fluoxetine) to
wellbutrin...Anyhow...Anyone have any
suggestions?
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donnabella
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Oct 2005 Posts: 35 Location: CA
:( Posted: 10-11-05 02:30am
Awwww...Hmmmm I kinda kno what your talkin
about...Tho im only 17...But I have an
eatin disorder since I was about 7th
grade...And still kinda struggle with
it...I have recently gotten diagnosed with
depression and I kinda understand what u
are going thru...But yet im still
young...But im here to talk to you about
anything even tho u r like a mom to me
:)...Which is a good thing rite?...Feel
better and maybe go to the doct agn maybe
a psychiatrist.....Talk your feelings out
maybe that will work who knows try
anything...Dont let you kids down
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herbsandcures
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Oct 2005 Posts: 10 Location: Indore, India
Happiness Does Not Grow On Trees Posted: 10-11-05 04:44am
I am really surprised to note this
statement of yours as being diagnoised.
Are you comfortably placed with your
family?Having children around and a loving
husband that you claim to love a lot
nothing could be better.
Get into the habit of finding something
good in anything bad that comes in life
and make sure your focus stays on
that.Getting into the happiness mode has
to be made a habit and can not be left to
destiny.
God has made you and provided you with a
large and affectionate family.
Your eating disorder may be in disguise an
digestive tract system defect of long.
Try to get into better eating habits and
regular bowel movements.Indian gooseberry
known by many other names is a very useful
herb which is very helpful in building a
healthy digestive system.
Happiness does not grow on trees .Build
good habits and do justice first to your
own self and then to your family.
All the best
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Kittykatus
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Oct 2005 Posts: 89 Location: United Kingdom
Posted: 10-12-05 05:59am
5 children? Wow what a big family.
Sounds wonderful to be blessed with so
many. I'm only 17 at the moment, but I
went through some sort of depression and
still do. I think that our bodies are
just not built for things that life throws
at us. We are immune to some solutions
but one in definite solves it; you
yourself can change it. You sound like a
strong person, even though you have low
self esteem as you say. We all do, my
friend. Even the most well-loved woman in
this world must look at herself in the
mirror and find something that she feels
is just not right. But to have 5
beautiful children, you must be so proud;
and them of you. You live in a happy
environment; and your very lucky. My
neighbourhood at the moment isn't as happy
as I would like it to be; but there you
go!
I hope that you will be ok and wake up
with a smile on your face, knowing that
all around you is positive energy and
warmth.
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Jaleigh
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Oct 2005 Posts: 34
Re: What Is My Problem? Posted: 10-24-05 08:58am
crissy1173
wrote:
i'm a 31 yr old sahm to 5
kids. I shouldn't have any reason to be
depressed. I love our home, my
neighborhood, my church, and even my hubby
of 10 years...But since giving birth to
our youngest (born march 13, 2005) my
doctor says I have post-partum depression.
I think it's more than that...I've had
these feelings for years. I have a very
low self esteem/self image, i'm constantly
putting myself down, i'm very
self-disciplining, and it's been brought
to my attention that I also have an eating
disorder. Can my life get any more
complicated?? To top it all off, I had
my tubes tied after my son was born...That
in itself is depressing to me. I didn't
think it would be....But now I feel so
useless....Like i'm no longer "whole"...I
don't know.
I have been walking almost daily (when
it's not too cold) and sometimes find
myself secretly hoping that someone
"accidentally" swerves and hits me....Why
do I feel this way? I'm on meds...But
recently was switched from prozac
(fluoxetine) to
wellbutrin...Anyhow...Anyone have any
suggestions?
it sounds to me like you need to visit
your doctor and have him switch your anti
depressant to something else. It doesn't
sound like the one your on is working very
well for you. You shouldn't be having
these type of feelings if the meds were
working properly. Talk to him/her about
and see if they can switch you to
something else. Ask them about lexipro
(sp?). That one seems to be a very good
one.
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Munoz1226
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Dec 2003 Posts: 130 Location: Tucson
What Is My Problem Reply Posted: 10-26-05 00:32am
Hello.
I didn't experience post partum
depression, but I suffer from anxiety and
depression. I actually just recently
began to feel much better. I have to say
it is all god.
Anyway, I really find it sad that your
self esteem and image of yourself are low.
Look yourself in the mirror and remind
yourself each and every time that god
created you in his own image and the way
you are is because he created you that
way. We may not understand certain
things, but he knows what he wants from
you and what he wanted you to look and be
like. I know this is a tough concept, but
you are here for now and I think it is
important that you learn to love you.
When you look at yourself, pick one thing
each time that makes you even half smile!
We all have complaints about our bodies,
but they are ours and only ours so learn
to thank god for your freckles or big butt
or big nose or pointy chin. Not saying
you have any of those, but my point is, we
all have different features and not one
person in the entire world is just like
you. That is amazing.
Start a daily journal. Write in everyday
and at the end of every year, burn it.
Say goodbye to the past and begin a new
one. It might be fun to read it once the
year is up before you burn it to see the
changes you have undergone. You may
surprise yourself!
You are the result of all the previous
pictures you have painted of yourself and
you can always paint new ones!-wayne dyer
learn to ask god in prayer to open your
heart and eyes to finding the blessings in
each day even if the day was a complete
ball of stress!!!
Good luck and god bless
