Brokenheart On My Birthday. Posted: 10-10-05 23:44pm
I broke up with my boyfriend on saturday
while we were supposed to be celebrating
my birthday.
He began feeling confused last week, when
he started to have feelings for a girl in
2 of his classes. I can understand, as
they are partners in each class and they
have to work in close quarters and
communicate between each other. I have
been distant and I know this, because at
the time, I was afraid I was pregnant.
(thank god, to know that this is not so).
So they grew closer last week or so I
believe. He has also been learning a
different language from her outside of
class and I have felt jealousy, but did
nothing to stop him because I thought or
believed I could trust him.
She took off her shirt, tried to kiss and
grab his crotch on the friday night,
before I saw him on saturday. He says he
pushed her off, I believe him there. But
it really hurts. I wonder how she thought
she could do that to him, unless he was
partially responsible for making her
believe she could? And even now, I beat
myself up emotionally because I feel as
though i'm lacking something or that i'm
not good enough or strong enough to
continue without him. I know I can
survive this, and I know that if it goes
bad, I can move on yes.
But at this moment, he's saying that he's
confused and not sure what he wants. He
knows he has me, but also knows he has
some feelings for her, but not in the same
way. She needs him emotionally as she's
not stable in her home life, and maybe
that's what he always wanted - to be
needed.
I keep thinking of defeat. I want to
fight this, but I don't know how. Classes
are getting more involved and he will be
seeing her every evening until the
theartre classes end in november. I know
I have enough will to trust him, but at
this point, it seems as though he doesn't
even know if he wants me. I don't really
know what to do. I keep saying i'll move
on but it feels empty. It feels like i've
lost a best friend, when really our
relationship was doing well (or so I
thought). He's confused because he loves
us both. He needs time, but i'm not sure
if i'll manage waiting.
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Loki_
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Sep 2005 Posts: 29
Posted: 10-11-05 02:30am
Anybody have any input on this situation?
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Mistress_Raven
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Oct 2005 Posts: 9 Location: Dominican Republic
Posted: 10-20-05 21:39pm
Sweetie...medical question him. Seriously
babe...He's not worth it. What the hell
is he doing? He's leaving you on hold
while he "ponders" on what he feels for
the other girl. Come to think of it and
at the end of all things he's gonna have
two asses to spank: hers and yours.
Let him realize how stupid he is for
leaving you...There's a saying that goes
"nunca dejes camino real por vereda" and I
don't really know how to translate it, but
it means not to leave royalty to spend
some time chilling with peasants. You
deserve royalty. In the meantime why not
find yourself some nice guy you can spend
time with? And then when he realizes "oh
my god, what have I done?"
oops...Too bad for him cuz the tables have
turned.
