Yikes. There is an eating disorder
conference being run by the treatment
centre I attend this friday, and is
naturally, in my locality. I am going
along to it. It is so scary though. I
made a collage for it on sunday (my first
one ever), and some of my photos are being
portrayed on a slide show, and made a
collage of sorts (more like a big poster
though) of some of my photos for it last
night. It is so scary, because of the
fact, that in essence, I am putting myself
out there. My ed is one aspect of myself
that I have kept pretty much to myself
over the years - so it really feels as if
i'm putting myself out there - despite the
fact that no one will necessarily know
that they are mine. It's strange though.
I do want to participate and contribute
on some level, and am finding it
challenging - most likely due to the
secretive nature of ed's, especially in
light of the fact that I always managed to
keep it from my family. I also know that
this is an important step for me to take,
especially if I want to work in the ed
field - my dream for the past number of
years (and still is) is to some day work
in the clinic I currently attend - hence,
if I can things sorted with the
accreditation organisation, I can start to
cut down on my sessions.
