That's what I keep telling myself.
I go in calm and collected and I am okay up until the time when they stick those clamps in. Then they keep saying relax honey, it's not that bad...And I usually get really mad because I just want to get it over and done with but they won't shut up and do it, but they won't because i'm tense. Well yeah, I think it's natural to be tense when some lady and man pry's your legs open and then tells you to relax when they are sticking clamps and a stick in there. Then my doctor says "really it's not that bad" and I was getting a little snappy and said "really? When was your last pap" he backed off then.
The reason I think it's so bad for me is that my first pap was painful because they broke my hymen (spelling?) they said it hurt because I was still a virgin. My doctor was a young pup too, and kinda cute, until I kicked him. Woops. I was only 19 and getting married in a month, so I was totally stressed out. And ever since then I haven't been able to go through with it.