Joined: 31 Oct 2005 Posts: 1 Location: Rapid City,SD
My Best Friend... And It Kills Me... Posted: 10-31-05 03:14am
He's my best friend.. We were friends,
then lovers... And everything fell apart,
because I was undiagnosed bipolar. I flew
off the deep end so often, and I tried to
spare him by leaving for hours...And he
was fine until one night he just... He
didn't get it...And it all fell apart.
We became the best of friends in the past
year since then...And recently he told me
he loved me, and couldnt be without
me...
But hes afraid of doing it up again, and I
just... I dont know what to do. I've
never loved someone more. Never. He took
me to the e.R the night I tried to kill
myself, found me passed out from
overdose...Waited with me and held my
hand... Comforted me when I was raped...
And broke the kids elbow for touching
me... He is incredible... When my dad
used to hit me alot... He would kiss me
until I smiled, and he would hold me and
everything...
The nights I hurt myself, he washed off
the blood, and cried for me...
And now... I feel like hes so far away...
He keeps telling me how much he adores
me... But im watchin him drink and smoke
pot and hurt himself...And he wont let me
help him.
Im in tears as I think about this...
What should I do? He means the world to
me...
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tarbaby
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Jun 2005 Posts: 19
Posted: 11-03-05 21:58pm
It sounds like both of you could use some
couseling. You've got things from your
past you need to work out. Also if you
are bipolar are you on medication? Maybe
if he sees you working on yourself he will
as well. I don't know if what i'm saying
is accurate as I don't have the whole
story but it might be a place to start.
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Jiiarian
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Nov 2005 Posts: 12 Location: Anchorage, Alaska
Posted: 11-07-05 07:51am
Tarbaby is right about getting some
couseling.
It's a good start, if you can both go.
It could help keep the relationship going,
and far more, help you guys make plans for
the future together.
He's hurting himself because he doesn't
want to see your hurt. You should help
him like he helped you.
I know what it's like being bipolar, and
it really is a pain. But if you guys
really, really want to make it work, i'd
go with tarbaby's advice and get someone
to help you both out.
It'd be a shame to hear such a nice
relationship thrown away over this.
