Got Help Dr.'s Appt. Monday!! So Scard About What Will Happ.

Hey well I have been on here a couple of months thinking about getting help. Now I finially have. I told my mom on wendsday and I have a doctors appointment tomarrow. I think I am kinda nervous but more or less I am excited. I am doing something about my problem. I am just scared that I am gonna go in there and they are gonna be like o well you are lying ya ya ya ya I mean I don't think that they would but my parents don't beleive me si thats probably why I think that. They think that since I use to cook alot and don't freak out about eatin that I am fine. I am not I know this. I also told my older sisters it was so emotional for me cause it was over the phone. I have felt weird around my parents now like I have barely ate which I don't think is bad (but it's bad on my health) and I haven't purged in about 2 weeks cause I wasn't really home for a week and then I wold my parents a week ago and yeah. I ate a full meal tonight and I can feel it in my stomach so I don't like that. I am just wanting to have the feeling of purging and I just want it badly. I am finially another step closer to being free of this disease. Thank you everyone I have had support from alot of people on here. I am happy I have found this site. I probably wouldn't be gettint help if I didn't so once more thank you everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!