Joined: 07 Nov 2005 Posts: 12 Location: Anchorage, Alaska
Woe Is Me?? Posted: 11-07-05 08:16am
Well, corny title, but here's my story.
I have a lot of drama in my life, am now
in my senior year of highschool, and a lot
of unanswered questions.
I hope a few can be answered here, and I
hope others I can find out on my own.
Until than, here's my start.
When I was in sophmore (03)year of
highschool, I met my first boyfriend worth
being with.
We lost our virginity to eachother, but
got rocky near the end of three months.
I know that isn't long but when you are
use to relationships last only 3 days to a
week because you get bored, that means the
world to you at that moment.
I skipped school a lot back than near the
end of the school year, and we broke up
one day after our three month anniversiry,
which was on the 14th of may, may 15th was
the break up. Our birthdays were the same
date (may 30th), but he was a year
older.
On the rebound, the exchange student and I
made-out, but never had intercourse, and
shortly before my birthday, I dated my
bestfriend.
We only dated a few days before we made
the agreement to break up. The
relationship between us it still good.
I went the whole summer without hearing a
word from my ex, joined a few sites he was
on and kinda 'stalked' him, which I know
is really, really horrible of myself, but
I am a very curious person, and follow the
rules of keeping friends close and enemies
closer.
Finally, in august, I started talking to
him online, but it fell to pieces fast
because both him and I have mental
disablities that we're both unsure of and
just snapped at eachother. (depression or
bipolar)
a year went by, we both teased and taunted
eachother like little school kids, and
finally, we started talking.
I sent him an apology through my current
boyfriend saying things have changed and I
would like a second chance to befriend him
once more.
Success!!
The problem though, is I still love him.
Sure, we're still taunting and making fun
of eachother, out of playfullness these
days, but when I brought it up to him, he
went silent.
I told him i'd go no farther than friends
with benefits because he said I was a good
person, and we both agreed we didn't want
to ruin the friendship we were now
having.
We never did have a friendship when we
first met, it was just a jump into the
relationship.
I know he doesn't want me like I want
him.
I just like being around him, being able
to see him, but there seems to be almost
no way to get a hold of him without him
saying some excuse.
But he did just get back from colorado,
and does have a lot of friends.
What's your inputs?
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tbaa_29
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Nov 2005 Posts: 32 Location: England
Posted: 11-21-05 19:20pm
Hi, you said you got a message to ur ex
thru your current b/f. Ru still with
that b/f???? If you are how does he feel
about u obsessing over another guy??
I think you really need to stay away from
your ex. It may be hard at first but it
will get easier. Beleive me whilst your
still this close to your ex you will never
move on with your life.
You need to get over him he does not want
you the way you want him and the only
person who is gonna get hurt is you.
I also think that maybe you only want him
cuz you cant have him.
