My Baby Would Be 2 Today. Posted: 11-25-05 11:37am
Hi everyone,
i know I pop into this site every now and
again. But i'm on a low today and need to
have a little rant.
I had an abortion on 11/4/03 and my due
date would have been 25/11/03. Today (or
obviously arround) would have been my
babys 2nd birthday.
There hasnt been a day that has gone past
when I havent thought about him/her. I
regret it everyday and wish I had the
strength to stand up to my boyfriend and
my parents. At the time I owned my own
home, I had a steady loving relationship,
money in the bank and a good job. But
none of that made any difference because
my boyfriend didnt want it (even though he
persuaded me to try for a baby in the
first place) and my family said I would be
on my own. I knew I couldnt keep my house
on my own and look after a baby and my
parents wouldnt have me either. It was
the loneliest time of my life. I felt
like I lost everyone I loved that day and
I still now will never forgive them for
not listening to what I wanted.
On the day of the abortion my boyfriend
and my mum came with me. I pleaded with
them in the car to not make me g through
with this but they again instsited that I
would be a single mum on my own without
their blessing or their help. I sat in
the clinic crying (no other girls were
upset, at least they didnt appear to be) I
went up to the prep room where they put a
belt on you and get you to put on a
t-shirt. I waited outside and when the
doors opened to let me in I had a panic
attack and fell on the floor. The nurses
and doctors picked me up, put me on the
table. I tried to sit up and ask for a
paper bag to stablise my breathing but
they pushed me down and put a needle in my
arm and I fell asleep.
The next time I woke up my life had
changed.
I totally believe that abortion is right
for some people. I just have found it
very hard, I loved my baby and for those
few weeks I was pregnant I felt 'special'
and 'important', there was another reason
for living and that was to care for and
love my baby. What an fool I have been.
Anyway sorry to rant, its on certain dates
that I get especially down.
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Tazzy D
Advanced Support Team
Joined: 30 Oct 2004 Posts: 3717 Location: , va
Posted: 11-27-05 00:43am
.H.A.P.P.Y. .B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.
Im sorry that you had to go through all of
that...If you need to vent.. Vent on..
We are here for you
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Tylanas
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Posted: 11-27-05 14:14pm
Oh my, that is truly horrid... I'm very
very sorry that happened to you... Please
remember though that it is not a burden
for you to shoulder alone. A lot of
people forced you into that desicion, it's
not just your fault! I can't believe how
callous your boyfriend was, when he'd
wanted you to get pregnant in the first
place. I hope you still have your home
and your money and are in a truly
loving relationship, if that's what you
wish for. One where he will not force you
to give up your baby if you don't want to.
This is one of the cases that make me so
angry! No woman should be forced to give
up her baby, if she wanted it! You, hun,
are the victim in this case. But I hope
you are able to find faith or calmness or
healing in whatever you believe in, and
move on, and be someday a wonderful
mother!
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Posted: 11-27-05 17:28pm
I am truly sorry that you were pushed into
that, it should not have happened, it
should always be your body and your
choice. It is not your fault that this
happened! You need to forgive yourself!
I hope you are not with the same guy as
I am sure you should no longer have any
respect for him.
I hope you can get the help here and also
some spiritual and professional guidance
that might be needed for healing along
with the strength.
You are correct there, abortion is right
for some females circumstances.
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