Hi everybody,
i;m 16 years old and I really dont no
whats what anymore. I hate myself for
being so upset because I have no right to
be.. I;ve always told my self that.. I
have everything anyone could imagine... A
great family, a nice house, a safe
neighbour hood, used to have friends( have
kind of lost them all) but I am so unhappy
that I cant even think anymore. I just
think its becuase i;m so emotional and
thats just my personality but lately...
Things have been different... One bad
thing happens and then something worse
happens. My grandma passed away a few
months ago which killed me. I;m still
so.... Lost. And in o thats normal to be
hurting after a death especially when she
was so close to me. But i;ve never felt
normal. I lose everybody that I ever care
about and now.. I;m scaring myself half 2
death. I keep thinking that it could be
the last time i;m with someone I love that
they;ll be out of my life in a flash. I;m
scared. I dont no y i;m sad. I ahve
everything. Everything. But I can never
wake up and feel happy. I just want to
sit in my room and just cry for the rest
of my life. I no i;m 16 and u no i;m
probably just going through the "
hormones" but I think its more than just
that. It hurts to much. I cant take it
anymore. I only have one important person
in my life (besides my family) that I
love... And hasnt let me down.. And I am
so scared! All I want 2 do is let that
person go because if 1 more thing happens.
God help me. I dont no y I am the way I
am and y I feel the things I feel.I dont
no what happiness is... I just cant feel
anything anymore.
Hey I know exactaly how you feel. All I
can tell you is that it will one day get
better if you want it to. I know it is
hard and I know that if feels like a
hopeless feeling and you dont know what to
do. But all I can say is that things will
get better. You just have to belive that.
I know that is what I have belived for
years and I know that everything feels
like it gets bad and the it seems to start
to get better.
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frosk
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Dec 2005 Posts: 11
Posted: 12-10-05 16:11pm
I went through the same thing you did
lost. My depression hit me when I was
16. I can remember the day. I felt the
same way you are right now. I lost all
my friends because I didnt know how to
feel and I basically lost my personality.
I wish I realized then that there is
help. I suffered like you are now for 11
years before I realized there was
something that could help me. My family
didnt understand, I was spoiled to death.
They thought there is no reason for me to
act the way I did yet I would just feel
terrible all the time unless I was asleep.
I suggest you find a way to see a doctor
or psychiatrist. I will tell you that
after 11 years of feeling like **** I was
prescribed one antidepressant. I swear
within a day I was a different person.
Its truly amazing. I am not saying that
you will feel different in a day, but it
is worth a try if the doctor says so.
Please dont sit there and let this take
over your life like it almost did mine.
I now have a wife and 2 daughters which I
never thought would happen. Go get help.
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BlindingLight
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Mar 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 03-24-07 16:03pm
Hey mate
There isn't much I can say or anyone can
say that will make you feel instantly
better. All I can tell you is you're not
alone. I'm in the same position as you
right now......perhaps for different
reasons, but with the same outcome. I'm
sure it can only get better!
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Jouri
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Apr 2007 Posts: 2 Location: NC
I Completely Understand Posted: 04-11-07 09:18am
I agree with frosk. My mother loved tha
hell out of me and still does and spoiled
tha hell out of me growing up and it
completely ruined my life. I never begged
my parents for anything, I never liked
being spoiled because I didn't want other
people to make it seen like I couldn't do
anything or get anything for myself. It
was all about self pride. All of that
eventually caused my parents to be too
overprotective and too paranoid about
things and other people when I tried to
make freinds. I'm 22 years old and I'll be
23 next month in May and I'm still treated
like a child. I have a good job working at
the hospital and have been there for 5
years. I dont drive or have a liscence. I
still feel hopeless and feel like I cant
do anything right. Trust me, I know how
you feel when it comes too depression. I
had some freinds but they all moved away
and I'm still stuck in the country. I felt
as if I didn't know why GOD continues to
llow me to live and he knows how much I
hate myself and my life. Things will
somehow get better, dont give up yet.
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sleepy_pandora
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Apr 2007 Posts: 2 Location: Singapore
And I Thought I Was Alone... Posted: 04-11-07 16:19pm
Hi there lost..
I am in your position at the moment..
exact one and although i lost my grandpa 3
years ago, it never really did get out of
me.
I feel low every other day and i just want
my loved ones to leave me alone. I tend to
say the wrong things and i'll be more
upset when they retort and say things that
i find mean. It is hard to explain.
Coupled with my migraine attacks, i feel
so helpless at times. I feel scared
everyday. I feel like i'm not worthy of
having my loved ones especially my ex
boyfriend.
Thanks for opening up. Without sounding
sadistic, it makes me happy to know that i
am not alone. I hope you'll feel better to
know that you are not alone as well. I
think we'll past this stage soon...
hopefully.
But like what others have already
mentioned, perhaps you should see a doctor
if you cannot control it further. But try
telling yourself that this in an internal
thing. I tell myself everyday that i'll
get better if and only if i help myself.
Luckily, i opened up to a few friends who
have since, been checking on me everyday
and telling me how much they care, making
life more meaningful at times.
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iwanttodie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Apr 2007 Posts: 2
You Think You Have Problems? Posted: 04-17-07 07:35am
You think YOU have problems?
my families worse...
2 commited suicide
4 got mad
the rest don't care...
and i've developed a "invisible" friend
no one can see him...
i'll die one morning...
i asked him to kill me when hes' ready...
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themandan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Apr 2007 Posts: 1 Location: maine
Hey I Just Wanted to Say This Posted: 04-27-07 13:06pm
im in my mid 20s in collage but i know im
not getting good grades. I really don't
want to do my work because im not having
any fun here. I really dont have any good
friends here or anywhere else. I know some
of that is because i dont approch people
alot but i don't understand why they dont
say hi to me. I have both a funny/silly
side and a serious side. i would really
like to meet a girl around here and to go
out and have a good time. This college is
small about 300. I am not sure if theres
nobody here who wants anything to do with
me or if i could do something to get
noticed more. I want to add that im a
really good basketball player and i like
singing to songs. I think i would be alot
of fun around people. I know i sleep to
much but with nobody to hang out with i
don't know what else to do.
I Think Everyone Feels This Posted: 04-28-07 09:24am
everyone has a time in there life when
they feel like you do at the moment, i
went through the same as you when i was
your age. where it feels like the end of
the world and that is made evern worse
when you lose someone so close, and you
dont want to go on without them. but we
have to and with time it does get easier.
when i was 19 one of my very close friends
was killed in a bike accident, my world
fell apart going from talking every day to
never hearing his voice or seeing his big
grin again, i got to the point of never
wanting to get up and i didn't want to see
people, and then a month later my anutie
died suddley and the three months after
that my grandma died and then eight months
after that my uncle died suddley and then
a few weeks after that a friend from work
was killed in a car crash, it got to the
point when i didn't get up some mornings i
was that down.
but then i spoke to someone who said to
me, do you think all of these loved ones
would want you crying and morning them
still, they would want you to see just how
quickly things can be taken away from you
and you should live every minuet of
everyday to the full, so then you have no
regrets of not making the most of your
friends and family coz there the people
that matter dont push them away embrace
them and live to the full.
one day you'll wake and look forward to
the rest of the day, your still young
theres so much for you to see and do. just
go for it .
good luck
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Ninjight
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 May 2007 Posts: 10
Re: I'm Just So Alone. Posted: 05-08-07 07:45am
Follow me, i will show you how to be free
Lost_in_a_werid_world
wrote:
Hi everybody,
i;m 16 years old and I really dont no
whats what anymore. I hate myself for
being so upset because I have no right to
be.. I;ve always told my self that.. I
have everything anyone could imagine... A
great family, a nice house, a safe
neighbour hood, used to have friends( have
kind of lost them all) but I am so unhappy
that I cant even think anymore. I just
think its becuase i;m so emotional and
thats just my personality but lately...
Things have been different... One bad
thing happens and then something worse
happens. My grandma passed away a few
months ago which killed me. I;m still
so.... Lost. And in o thats normal to be
hurting after a death especially when she
was so close to me. But i;ve never felt
normal. I lose everybody that I ever care
about and now.. I;m scaring myself half 2
death. I keep thinking that it could be
the last time i;m with someone I love that
they;ll be out of my life in a flash. I;m
scared. I dont no y i;m sad. I ahve
everything. Everything. But I can never
wake up and feel happy. I just want to
sit in my room and just cry for the rest
of my life. I no i;m 16 and u no i;m
probably just going through the "
hormones" but I think its more than just
that. It hurts to much. I cant take it
anymore. I only have one important person
in my life (besides my family) that I
love... And hasnt let me down.. And I am
so scared! All I want 2 do is let that
person go because if 1 more thing happens.
God help me. I dont no y I am the way I
am and y I feel the things I feel.I dont
no what happiness is... I just cant feel
anything
anymore.
